the line between you & me

lost

You took my feelings and tossed them away.
You broke the core of who I was.
You did it so I didn't have to see who you really were.
You're the best damn actor there is.

I'd tell you exactly how I felt.
But even now I don't want to put you down.
Screw the things you told me.
How I was beautiful and hot on the same day.
I wish I didn't remember how it felt when we kissed.
You tasted of Marlboro and beer.
I assume you still do.

I'm not the kind of person to get so angry.
Unless that anger builds over time.
And it's been a month but it feels like yesterday.
Cause I let you slip back in and find my weakness.
Did you even think of her when you undressed me?
Did a small amount of guilt come with the sensation?
Because I feel guilty, and I should be punished.

She loves you more than even I know.
But she doesn't love you the way I did.
Maybe she thinks that she can love your bad away.
Hell, I did too.
She's a sunflower in the room, she seems really happy.
Do you know what he does on the weekends honey?

We were kids just experimenting.
Am I really that attractive?
You just loved my body and the way it fit in yours.
But you love the suspense of unfaithfulness more.
A man on the outside, but a boy on the inside.
That's what you are, the Devil's perfect subject.

Love doesn't burn in my soul for you anymore.
I just wish that I could know if you feel ashamed.
Ashamed of the marks you left on me.
The pain you seen in my eyes when I heard you sing.
Or the tears flowing like lava when you made her laugh.

Given I'm supposed to not think of you.
Some things you can't erase.
And I don't have an eraser for the moments you stole.
I don't have the answers to the questions I asked.
And that's because I found loyalty in your stupid lies.

There will come a day when you think of me.
Maybe you'll see me walking down the street.
Hand in hand with the love of my life.
I hope you remember the night in your truck.
The cab was so small that I didn't think we could.

I hope you remember how I asked for one last kiss.
One last kiss before you sped off so quick.
I hope you remember the day I came back.
How eager I was to see you and touch you.
I hope you remember how quick it was.
The lies I told so I could have one last memory.

Tell me.
Do you miss what we could've been?
Do you miss the months before graduation?
Do you miss my loyalty?
Tossing every other guy to the side for you?

You're one of the reasons I'm so afraid to feel.
Passion lead me to pain.
Lust lead me to longing.
And love led me to loss.