the line between you & me

longing

I see you in the tips of my fingers,
And I see you in the strands of my hair.
You are the ache I wish to see gone,
Only because it's a painful reminder.
I wish I knew why we were brought together,
Oh, how I wish I knew why we were split apart.
Every kiss you planted on my body remains,
A fragile whisper I hold onto on late nights.
Every touch you performed like calligraphy,
Is the form of art I hope to look at every day.
I pace back and forth in my mind,
Hoping to find peace among the pain we inflicted.
You are what the waves bow down to at midnight,
And you are the boiling energy of the stars.
All at once your chaos became my addiction,
I am an addict still, a prisoner to your existence.
Every day I hear your heart call my name,
Oh, how I wish I didn't have to turn it away.
Recovery is like a hell that ignites with salt,
I am bitter to the taste, to the taste of you.
I miss the way your fingernails dug into my skin,
I miss your brown eyes begging me for more,
I miss watching your lip quiver at the sight of me,
I miss the pressure of your hips under my body,
I miss your arm around me as we slept,
I miss the softness of the kiss that never ended.
I miss the way you said my name when we argued,
I miss your laughter, something I'll always remember,
I miss the times you held my hand so tightly,
And I miss the way you said "I love you."
My body longs for you, my soul mourns for you,
Just as my heart can't stop loving you.