the line between you & me

daddy issues

I wish that my dad would've loved my mom
In a way I could've been proud of
And I wish it was so much love that
It overflowed into me

Sometimes we don't get to see that love
And when we don't, well
You turn out like me

You see, I never had a man tell me I was pretty
Without him pushing to see me naked
So I molded my idea of love in empty masculinity
It's nothing that I'm proud of, I just have to accept
That this is where I am, and just go forward

Dad never praised me for the A+ report card
But daddy praised me when I took my clothes off
In the heat of the moment,
I am powerful
Then I remember how powerless I am against them leaving

Sometimes we don't get to see that love
And when we don't, well
You turn out like me

Every now and then I want to call my dad
And say "Why do I fall in love with men like you?"
He'll groan and accuse me of psychotic things
But deep down he knows he made me this way

I could change, because I know I'm worth more
But change is
Almost impossible when you've never known
What change means

Sometimes we won't get to feel love at all
And when we don't, well
You might turn out like me