The book of life: Evolution of my self through incarnation 33

The early days

I was born on September 1st, 1981 in a hospital in Slavonski Brod, Croatia, but as a child I've lived in Sibinj, a nearby village where my parents had a home.

Considering my hypotheses on soul-body coupling and evidence for it, it is the place of conception that is important, however, the place of conception is generally very close to the place of birth. The place of my conception (location at or near Sibinj) is one evidence that my past incarnations, apart from Tesla, also include I. Newton and J. Christ [see blog post: https://amenoum.org/blog/2023.02.03.html].

Naturally, I don't remember much of my early childhood, but I do remember things of high impact.

One time my father took me to a nearby lake called Petnja. I was about 6 or 7 years old. While I was in the water playing with another kid, my father went away for a moment to talk with his friend. I had that inflatable swimming belt around me, but, during play, somehow it inverted and my head ended up in the water while my legs were up in the air. The other kid didn't really understand what was happening, he was laughing at his joke and no one suspected there's something wrong. But somehow an older woman lying nearby noticed this and managed to pull me up before it was too late.

Another significant thing I remember was when I got my first computer - C64. I think I was 8 or 9 years old. I really enjoyed playing games on that thing, but I was most interested in how these games were made. I was trying to do some programming on it, but the interface it comes with was very basic and limited, so not much could be done.

This changed, perhaps two years later, when my father bought a 386 desktop machine for work. It was love at first boot for me. I don't think he did much work on it, certainly not much compared to how many hours I've spent coding stuff and playing games.

I have also spent significant portion of my childhood at my grandma's (from mother's side) place. I had good time there, and I'll never forget the plum-filled dumplings grandma used to make, still the best I ever tasted.

I remember that during a large period of my childhood I really didn't like being photographed. Every time someone would try to take a photo of me I would burst into tears and turn my back on him.

Naturally, there aren't many photos of me during that period and those that do exist don't show my face, only my back. For a long time I couldn't figure out why was I reacting in that way and what was the meaning of it. But it's clear to me now that this was an expression of a crossover instinct - in some of my past lives my soul was in an animal sensitive to light but it was occasionally exposed to bright flashes of light, someone might have been taking pictures of it, perhaps regularly, and it hurt.

I have another interpretation of this (although both are likely true). Recently, I'm having problems with my eyes while being outside on sunny days. Every time I go out on a sunny day my eyes start closing and it becomes very hard to use them. Initially, I thought this was related to another issue - a tiny fragment of metal got recently incorporated (or glued) to my right eye causing eyesight issues, however, since both eyes are affected by the presence of the Sun and considering that I do not have any issues any more while indoors (or outdoors at night) even when looking at sources of light (such as light bulbs and computer screens), I believe the two phenomena are not strongly related, rather synchronized. I thus consider my childhood fear of exposure to bright light as a precursor to this, and this as a possible precursor to sensitivity to frequencies of sunlight in a future incarnation - real homo.sapiens [see paper: https://amenoum.org/log/25_species_of_homo.html]. Considering that homo.sapiens (true one) should be living in Earth's mantle, and if, as hypothesized, it lives in dark illuminated by bio-luminescence, such precursor is not surprising.

With time, more and more people should be experiencing the same, however, I'm not sure about my own evolution in near future. I might stagnate in human form for a while.

It should not be uncommon for children to produce such reactions, so if a child reacts unexpectedly to something, it would be good to respect its choice rather than force it to do something it doesn't like, it will eventually pick up more human-like behavioral characteristics, although it is possible for some instincts to survive even to adulthood.

In case of children however, another possibility exists too - if the radius of a soul of an individual (or its brain) grows (growth = slow motion inflation) with the growth of the brain (which does not mean the soul is in the brain, even if it is localized to the same area its space is of another scale and the two are simply correlated) then, since this radius is correlated with soul's frequency of oscillation, a child might be more mentally entangled with other species - those whose soul radius is the same with the current radius of the child's soul. Note that this also implies that children are much more mentally entangled with other children of equal age than they are mentally influenced by adults.

Strength of this mental influence is inversely proportional to distance and difference between soul radii.