Chasing Love - COMPLETE

Chapter Thirteen: New Version Of Me

After walking home shamefully from the cafe, I started to think about the look in Alex's eyes after I kissed Keith.
Why am I such a whore? Why didn't I just leave? I started questioning my reasonings while I rested on my bed. Why couldn't I just stay with Mya and Marquita? Life was easier then, I was the less attractive one which ment less boy trouble and better grades. Mya was a party girl. Don't get me wrong she was a pretty smart girl when she wasn't drunk. The thing I adored about her the most was the way her raven hair matched her beautiful tan skin. Marquita was a differnt story, Marquita was a shy girl from South America, she was known from her accent, and her massive slutting. She slept with almost every guy. As bad as that sounds, she was just misunderstood, she was actually a smart shy girl, and me, I was me. Except I had a differnt type of style then. I was geeky, wore glasses and had braces, but since Last summer I've tried so hard to change my appearance for this. I wish I just had someone to talk to who'd really understand me.

I laid in bed rethinking everything, from pass mistakes to now, I hated it. Most of all I hated myself. I constantly make the same mistakes over and over again, I don't know when to stop! First it's Alex, the first time he quited on me, and I let him back twice. It isn't fair to me that I have to put up with his life mistakes, even if one of them were me.

I couldn't keep my life conditions out of my head either. What about me? Who's going to help me? Tears began to leak out of my eyes. I don't have that much time left, and I don't want it wasted by caring about some teenaged boys I can never have. I slowly got out of bed wiping off the tears as I standed. If the girl I am is a push over I don't want to be it anymore.

"Monti," My mom called out to me from the kitchen "Dinner is ready!"
"I'm not hungry Jennifer," I said sarcastically. Ever since I was diagnosed my mom started treating me different, like I didn't matter. I probably didn't matter, what is a girl like me doing in a weathly family.
I waited minutes for her respond but there wasn't one. "I'm going out," I began "Don't wait up."

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As I walked in the cold night air, I finally felt relief. No one was on my back about what I was or wasn't. While I was out I got a pack of cigarettes, maybe they'd bring back the old me, I 'dunno. I didn't want to go home and I didn't want to stay out. Maybe I could do something fun for a change, or I could meet up with a couple of old friends.

As I walked the night, I finally reached my destination; An old treehouse. I know Mya and Marquita come here every Saturday, with or without me. I climbed up the ladder and finally gotten in. "I guess I was wrong," I whispered to myself as I sat down on the floor and lit a cigarette. "I guess I didn't know them that well."

I sighed, maybe it was better for me to be alone. Maybe I was a natural loner. As I thought that I released a smoke cloud.
"Monticello!?" A female voice called out to me. My head shot up, and before me was Mya and Marquita.
"Hey." I said trying to conceal the excitement I had to see them. Marquita rushed to my side a squeezed me so tight that the lighter fell out of my hand.
"Where have you been! We'd missed you! What happened to you? You look sick!" Marquita asked in one breath.
"Marquita give her some space, It's just Monti,
"But the the M's are back together!" Marquita squealed while jumping up and down. Watching them I couldn't help but to smile, Marquita was right we are back together, Theese are the people I could trust.
"Where do I began?" I said smiling like a fool as I stood up and ran towards The girls.

"You'll start when we get the booze!" Mya stated ushering Marquita to come up her.
"I'll stay here and dust myself off." Mya nodded and they exited. While they were gone I looked around the rather large tree house. "Wow, they kept it nice." I smiled to myself. Then it hit me. The strong smell of smoke filled the house. I quickly turned around to see a huge flame blocking the exit. I couldn't get out! I was stuck here. I totally panic and started screaming out of the mini window.

The fire got larger and the smoke was blinding. I could hardly breathe. "Jump!" They continually called out to me, I was scared of heights so I couldn't jump. The fire was getting closer and I couldn't breathe at all which caused my vision to blurr.

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