If, Buts and Maybes

C H A P T E R - 3 7

I look at the paramedics and then look back down at her. Her eyes close and the machine begins to start a long beep. The paramedics move me out the way to do their jobs. She's pregnant?

We finally arrive at the hospital and get out of the ambulance. "Please, help her!" I plead. The doctors stop me and tell me that they will do everything they can, but I need to stay out here. I watch as the doors close and the love of my life is strolled away from me. "FUCK!" I yell and bang my fist on the wall. "Mr Kennedy?" I hear a voice say behind me.

I turn around and see an old guy in a suit in front of me. "What?" I question aggressively. "I'm Detective Shepherd. Mr Michaelson and Mr Carmicheal have been taken into custody." he informs me. "What about the girl? Anezka?"

"She's telling us everything she knows," he states.

I give him my thanks and walk into the hospital. I take my phone out of my pocket and ring Sapphire, she deserves to know. The ringing carries on endlessly and she finally answers. "Hey, Hunter listen we've just gotten back and we're tired-"

I interrupt her rant. "Mackenzie's at the hospital."

"What?" she questions over the phone.

"Just get here with Eric and I'll explain everything properly." I demand

"Yeah sure, we're on our way."

She is pregnant. That was the news she wanted to tell me. She's carrying my baby. Oh my god.

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My head is killing me. My whole body is in so much pain. I open my eyes slowly and try to make sense of my surroundings. The sound of a machine humming confuses me. I look around. My hand has a wire coming out of it and I can't breathe. There's something in my mouth. It's stuck in my throat. "Mackenzie." A voice says from afar.

"Somebody help, she's awake!" the voice yells again. A group of nurses and doctors run into the room. "Mackenzie, I'm Doctor Powell, I'm going to take this tube out of your mouth, okay."

Suddenly I feel a huge relief. I feel like I can breathe. "Oh my god, Mack!" I hear another voice whisper. I finally open my eyes wide and make out the faces that belong to the voices. "Hunter." I plead. He rushes over to my side and holds my hands. "I'm here." Sapphire and Eric stood at the end of the bed and looked at me. Sapphire has tears filled in her eyes and Eric's face is filled with concern.

"Mackenzie, how are you feeling?" the doctor asks me.

"Okay." I managed to answer.

"You are going to be in a lot of pain, we had to do surgery on your abdomen and on your thigh. The knife didn't hit any major nerves so you got very lucky." he informs me.

"I...I" I try to speak.

"What? What's wrong?" Hunter questions with worry.

"My baby." That's not a question Mackenzie! I curse at myself for not being able to speak my thoughts.

Everyone's face drops. Hunter looks at the doctor and gives him a nod. "I'm afraid you miscarried before we could get you into surgery, we couldn't save the fetus. I'm sorry."

"No." I cy. "No, my baby. No" I cry again.

Hunter hushes me and caresses my hair. "Ssh, it's okay. It's okay. I know. It hurts baby, but you're gonna be okay." he comforts.

"Mack. I'm sorry." Sapphire says from the end of the bed.

"Why?"

"This is my fault. With Sam and the wedding. I'm so sorry" she cries as she walks towards the other side. "No. It's not your fault."

"What happened?" Eric asks.

I will explain in small sentences what happened. "Anezka called me. Said Zander hurting her. She needed help. When I went, they put me in a car and blindfolded-" I started to cry, remembering the trauma. "Okay, it's okay. You don't have to say anymore." Eric interrupts.

"How long have I been here?" I ask.

"Two weeks." the doctor answers. "Your wounds were detrimental. Your body has healed slightly, but from all the force from the assault, it will take a little longer."

Hunter asks everyone to leave us be. They all nod and leave the room. He sits by the side and his emerald eyes shine from the tears he's holding back. "Hey." I laugh trying to comfort him. "I'm okay."

"Was that your news? That you were pregnant?" he asks me

I nod and confirm his questions. "Oh god. Mackenzie, I'm so sorry. If I didn't ask you to see me, maybe if I didn't walk out that day..."

"Stop!" I interrupt. "This is no one's fault. We can't focus on one what could have happened. It happened."

"I know but-"

"I want a wedding." I interrupt.

"What?" he questions.

"Not now. Not any time soon, but definitely one day in the future. I want a wedding, with a big white dress, and flowers, and you. I want to marry you one day, because the whole time I was hurting, all I could think is if anything happens to me, I would want them to call you. I feel safe with you." I confess. "I want to tell people that my husband is getting on my nerves, and tell them that he didn't clean up, or my husband is treating me well. And when I say all that, I want to be talking about you."

He kisses my hand and laughs, whale tears still stroll down his cheeks. "I love you Hunter, and I can't wait for the day that I promise to love you for the rest of my life."

"I love you too." he says back and brings his lips to mine. The kiss is soft, it's gentle. It's telling me that he will be there at my strongest moments but even at my most vulnerable moments.