Different Worlds Collide

Chapter 31 (Sweetest Reunion)

I was busy spring cleaning and packing up all my old books ready to take them to the local bookshop when I heard a knock on the door

"It's open" I yelled picking up the box and placing it next to the table
"Are you packing without telling me?" I heard Amanda and I laughed
"No I am just spring cleaning since I have the time on my hands" I replied looking quickly at her while moved the box again
"What are you doing here?" I asked because I wasn't expecting anyone and I picked up another book
"I ah brought someone" she said just when I looked up at her I saw him standing there, he looked just as good as the day I saw him in the Hospital

Hayden was looking at me with unreadable eyes and I looked back at Amanda for a sign but nothing

"I am just going to leave you guys....ah to talk" she said turning and nodding up at him as she left closing the door behind her. I turned to pick up another book because I couldn't think of anything else to do or even say because Hayden was there and I was nervous as hell

"Alex" he said but I kept on picking up books till I felt him behind me as I stood up he grabbed my arm before I could pick up another book, my back against his chest and my heartbeat quickened

He turned me around so I was facing him

"I...ah do you want coffee?" I said trying to get an excuse to get out of here but before I could move his grip on my arm made me stumble back a bit back
"No" was his only reply and I looked up in his eyes

The eyes that haunted me every night since the day he pushed me out of his life those blue eyes that I missed so much, yet hated me but now those blue eyes was looking at me with some kind of emotion I couldn't understand

"What are you doing here?" I had to ask because we standing like this were getting me even more nervous
"I don't accept your resignation" he told me and I frowned then I remembered the letter I wrote him
"Oh but I..."
"You can't just expect me to accept it and move on?" he said and I looked at him
"Hayden it will be for the best" I told him but he wasn't listening
"Alex I just don't accept it, I don't accept your resignation even from my life" he said and that made me look up at him
"You did everything for me yet you lost everything in the end how can you be so selfish yet so kind?" he asked but I was lost with words
"Me selfish Hayden look I gave you what you wanted" I replied
"I know I took a long time to come here but there was so much to think about, so much I wanted to say and when I see you standing here looking like a mess, the words just disappear" he told me and I knew he was talking from the heart so I just listened
"I should have believed you but I was so mad I couldn't see behind it, I should have listened to you but the fury was just too much so I am here to tell you I'm so sorry" he said while still holding my face but I moved away
"You don't have to be sorry Hayden I was the one..."
"No don't you dare" he said to me
"Can you please just let me finish talking?" I said holding the books in the air and he stopped talking
"I know what you want to say Alex and I don't want you do say it" Hayden looked like he was losing hope
"I was the one who came into your life not the other way around, I was the one who spilled coffee on you, I was the one who kept on bumping into you and yet I was the one who ended up hurting you" I said looking into his eyes

"Don't you fucking dare say it, I was the one who was wrong I am the one who is apologizing not you" he said and I could see he was telling the truth but I didn't want to hurt him again
"Hayden you had a right to be mad but you also needed to give me a chance to explain" I told him
"I now I should have and I'm sorry for not trusting you, I'm sorry for all those mean and hurtful things I said, fuck I'm so sorry about hurting you" he said holding me by my shoulders as a tear escaped my eye
"Please I promise you I will never make you cry again" he told me looking at me
"I just want you do be..."
"I wanted to tell you how much I love you that night Hayden" I went and said it out loud, the ringing in my ears was loud as the silence took over
"I wanted to tell you how much you mean to me, I wanted to show you what love was" I continued
"Someone once told me I would know the day I fell in love with you and he was right it wasn't a day or a time it was a feeling the moment you made me feel like I was home, like I belonged... you are my home Hayden" I finished as tears came to my eyes
"I love you but I am scared that I will hurt you again" I said honestly he just stood there looking at me not saying a word. I knew it was the right time to tell him but now I wasn't so sure because he was just looking at me with no emotion he was just blank


"I'm sorry" was all he said and left me standing there looking back where he left. I fell back unto the couch, now I knew how he felt about me and I didn't know what to think

Then all of a sudden my door smashed open again as Hayden came over to me looking while I was sitting in a daze on the couch

"Don't you ever apologies to me first, don't you ever feel scared when I am with you and don't you ever dare to cry again because I will never make you feel like you are nothing Alex" he said bending down to my level

"Don't you ever do anything as stupid as all of this, I was so fucking stupid to believe anyone accept for you, you are the one who matters to me, when I saw you in the hospital I didn't know what to say or think but I had to be close to you, I want to be close to you each and every day Alex. Don't you ever dare to think you are not at home, because I will do anything and everything in my power to make you feel loved, cared for and make you my home. I am so deeply and madly in love with you" he confessed as I looked at him in modesty

"I love you Alex Caroline Knight and I will always make you feel like my home" he said grabbing my face in his hands and kissing me with passion, love and pure affection. He was showing me how he truly felt in just a kiss, and I drew him closer, I have missed this so much and I wanted his closer if it even was possible

"I missed you" I said when he looked into my eyes
"I missed you so much" I said again as he picked me up hugging me and kissing me after he put me down I looked back at him

"Why did you leave when I told you I loved you?" I really had to ask him because I thought he left me for good
"Oh sorry about that it didn't go as I had planned so I had to leave and rethink what I wanted to say" he said and I laughed
"I really thought you were leaving me here" I said to him as he smiled
"I will never leave you after everything you did for me in all honesty just the person you are made me who I am now" he said and I kissed him again

Hayden stood up with me in his arms and my legs wrapped around him, while walking up the staircase my shirt disappeared we ended in the bedroom, where he looked at me with adoration and I smiled at him, he took his time to exploring every curve of my body every touch left electrified against my skin and every whisper was something sweet

We made love like never before, we made pure sweet love like it was our last