Family Without blood {Technoblade X Fem!Reader}

Chapter 45 - Behind Closed Doors

Walking in the forest was like dreaming. The birds chipping their lungs out, flowers pipping up from the ground and the smell of summer hung in the forest itself, me and Tubbo were walking behind Y/n that was talking to the girl and the boy, still not knowing their name at all, and not being interested in knowing it. The tall guy had a weird crown on like he was some kind of fucking weirdo, and the girl that was his " sister" was weird in it all, nothing on her was normal, not any of her reminded me of a human person like she was some kind of demon that was not supposed to be here, but I was wrong for here she was with my " older sister" talking about stuff. " hey Tommy" Tubbo said, walking to my side wrapping his arm around my neck " nothing, nothing" I said, removing his arm from my back neck, returning to my walking tempo " well do you wanna talk about it?" he asked again running to my side " well what is there to talk about?" I said, kicking a stone that was in front of me " like you had a nightmare last night, and you crawled in my bed" he stopped up, realizing what he just had said to me, as I stopped tuning to me " you knew it, didn't you?" I said, moving my hands to my head feeling embarrassed " I know that you have nightmares all the time, I woke up last night to you screaming!" he snapped at me. I know that he cared about me a lot, and having all that stuff that I had gone through had left its mark, not just on the skin but on the mind as well. Knowing that I was damaged and hurt in the mind was the hardest to talk about, scars were easy to cover up by clothes or bandages, but having a voice talking about what Dream and the boys had done to me was the hardest.

 " Tommy, you know you can trust us, right?" Tubbo said placing a hand on my shoulder " well I am not sure about that, I mean, I trust you and Y/n with my whole, but I am not sure about those two" pointing to the siblings that were walking further away from us " you mean Ranboo and Lilly, yeah don't trust them both" " you know them?" looking shook Tubbo nodded his head, as a yes. " Well I meet Ranboo a few months before all of this, and I thought that they would be a good fit for our team" Phil glided to his side, nearly taking side with him, for the raged in me grow quickly in me. I jumped at him, making him fall over jumping with my whole body on his stomach I started to chocking position, pressing on his neck he tried his best to push me off

" Tommy!" Phil yelled, trying to pull me off him, but my mind was not having any of it " it is your fault that we are like this!" I scream in his face, tightening my grip on his neck " pleas-" Tubbo tried to say to me, but instead, his brain was starting to get desperate on getting some air in his chest banging his hand on my chest he tried to push me off. I was gonna kill him with my hands, that fucking traitor, my head started to say...

 " Tom!" suddenly two-arm wrapped around me drowning me over the ground banging into a tree, the pain swung in my body, and the feeling of liquid fall from my head. Looking at Tubbo, Y/n had him in her arm rudding his head calmly, his chest moving quickly trying to get all the air in his chest as possible " Tommy, what the hell is wrong with you!" she screamed at me, suddenly it hit me what I had done to him " I'm sorry-" I tried " don't come over here!" Phil scream looking worried at Tubbo that was fighting to get air in his chest " we need to return to the camp" he said, to Y/n that had tears in her eyes nodding her head she took him into her arm, flying off to the camp. All that was left behind stayed silent, Lilly was smiling at me, Ranboo was in shook his eyes being empty and Phil well let's say that he was ready to explode at any second " well me and Ranboo is going back" Lilly said moving behind me " stupid kid" she wished in my ear as she moved into the over part of the forest. 

" Tommy, explain now!" Phil said with a sharp voice at me " i-i don't know why I did it" my eyes feeling with tears, feeling down from my cheek " well I don't understand why you did it, explain it to me!" Phil yelled at me, making me feel even more unsure about my life, anxiety raised from my feet to my head feeling the chill spread in my vans too, as my heart started to beat even faster " Phil, I don't know why I did it, my head just told me too" trying to explain out, it is bullshit all of it honestly I did need to talk about what happened to me. 

" Phil I need a chat" " okay, let's talk about what is on your mind" Phil glided over the, placing himself behind me, allowing me to sit down leaning up at him, his cold body was some kind of relaxing and nice " tell me what is on your mind" " well you see-"

/:: Y/n

Tubbo was sleeping at my side, in his bed. He was sweating heavily in his bed, breathing hard having he started to move around in the bed " no, NO!" he screamed, jumping up in the bed looking around the room " NO GET AWAY!" he screamed at me, trying to push me away, but my brain was rolling instead of walking away from him, I pulled him into a hug. He kicked, hit, and screamed at me, feeling tears run from his face down on my shoulder. " shhh it is okay, Toby breath for me" soon he to calm down, feeling his body get weak on my shoulder, looking at him he was asleep again. Leaving him behind was hard for me, as hard it had ever been for me, still, I walked out from the hurt leaving Tubbo to sleep alone " his okay?" Lilly asked as she saw me walking out from the hut " no, he is having a nightmare" I said with a little shanking voice, as I looked at her.

 " Come on," she said pulling her arm out, inviting me to a hug, I gladly moved to her taking the hug that she offered me. " Thank you," I said " no worries," she said, feeling the warmth from her body was nice reminding me of someone. 

/:: Flashback

" Y/n I love you so much," Techno said holding me close to his chest " I love you too" smiling at him. He kissed my forehead " come on love, let's go inside"