Family Without blood {Technoblade X Fem!Reader}

Chapter 70 - Make it end...

TW: SUICIDE THOUGHT, BLOOD, AND PANICK ATTACK -----> IF YOU ARE SENSITIVE PLEASE SKIP THIS CHAPTER! 

" Toby, please I'm only trying for you to get better if you don't tell me it. I can't help you through this dark place you are in" I tried, as Toby looked over the forest " come" I said, opening my arm, as he looked tired and used, Toby, cuddled into my arm crawling onto my lap.

I felt the sun as it went down, yet again only the coldness spread around us, looking at Toby, he had closed eyes, only his hair that was shining light that was left from the sun was left. My thought all ran to the stuff that we had been through as our minds as grown bigger and larger. I remembered as I laid by the tree, holding Toby in my arm, what we had been taught. How we first met and that I was the one that was scared about life, and that he was the one to protracted me, Now over two years later, I was his big sister, that was doing everything in her power, to make his life better, even if I had to throw away my life for him, I would do it. Running my hand through his hair, I again looked back at the tent, as I did Eret walked by the tent " Eret?" I said, making him jump a little " Jesus, Y/n" he laughed at me, while I tried to hold my laugher in " why are you sitting there?" nodding my head to the sleeping boy in my arm, Eret smiled at me pulling his cap off, as he was close enough, he laid it over my shoulder feeling the warmth of it, Eret sat beside me. 

" Can I ask you something?" Eret asked, " sure, what?" moving my eyes to Toby that still was sleeping " how does it feel to be on the run, all the time. Never feeling safe anywhere, and always having someone after you?" my brain stopped working for a few seconds, turning my head to look at him " what you mean?" Eret looked nervous at me, moving his hand on the back of his head " I mean, you never felt safe anywhere especially not after that episode with Dream and that stuff, but how does it feel too unsafe all the time, and never feel welcome?" " I don't know, what you want me to say. It isn't easy for me, and it had never been that all my life, I have been on the run until Wilbur happened. He was the first person that cared for me and the first to break my heart, Techno saved me and pulled me into his life, his heart and he has given me the courage to, move back and see the demons in the eyes... thanks for that, if I hadn't had done that, I would never have met you" as I stopped, I felt my heart drop to my stomach, while my head started to run around, moving my hands to my head, I banged my hands on it " stop!" I complained as I banged even harder " stop Y/n!" Eret commented grabbing my hands " Eret, I'm losing my mind, I can't live like this anymore" 

" Y/n, you don't wanna go there again" Eret tried. " But I want to! I want to die, all the time. There is no place left for me to feel safe... I'm losing the grip of the life" I squeezed, looking at Toby, that with full horror was looking at me " you don't wanna be with me anymore?" he asked, making me tear up " Toby, you are my baby brother, that is no way, that I would ever leave you behind, in any way, okay?" he smiled at me, hugging me tight, soon enough he falls asleep again, looking at his belt, I saw his little pocket knife shining in the moonlight, looking at Eret, his mind was clearly somewhere else... I guess it was my chance, leaning over Toby's sleepy body, I moved my hand, taking the knife out.

 Looking at it once more, I moved it closer to my wrist, in slide with the knife on my skin made me want to scream out loud, as the liquid ran over my hand and fingers, another and another one, made me fall in control my body for the first time in a long time, I felt relieved. " What are you doing, Y/n?" lifting my head " Techno was standing in front of me " I... I just wanted to li-ke" looking down, Techno lifted my chin "what?" he asked " you don't understand, I have so much pressure in me" I laughed " god, what is wrong with you? are on something?" TEchno asked worried reaching out for the knife that was still in my hand " no! it is mine!" pulling it close to my chest " please give me it, I don't want you to get hurt even more" Techno snapped, his sharp voice, made me scream. Toby woke up, looking at me than at Techno " what is going on?" he asked, his eyes landing on my wrist than the knife I was holding on to dear life on" Y/n...." " leave me alone!" I scream at him pushing him off me, my head was turning around, yet I managed to stand up holding my wrist, as it dripped on the ground " let me die.... please... I ju-s-t wa-n-t to d-ie!" I screamed, still having a laughing in the throat, she took one move pulling the knife to her neck, the only thing I could come to, was the feeling of the pain that would be left on my body, when the knife would enter my skin " please don't do this!" Toby screamed, with tears, running down his cheeks " I don't want to hurt you even more!" I snapped at him, stepping backward " I don't want to be alone" Toby cried at me. 

Looking at the trees behind them, Wilbur and Jack came out, Wilbur was holding a torch in his hand, my eyes widen as I saw him smirk at me, nodding his head at me, I cried " he did this.." I said, pushing the knife on my neck, leaving a bloodline " who did?" Eret asked, stepping closer to me " Wilbur.." as I said that, I dropped the knife to the ground, feeling darkness surround me, falling to my knees I cried one more time, out a small help......