Family Without blood {Technoblade X Fem!Reader}

Chapter 71 - See The Light

/:: Tubbo

We all when it panics, mostly I want into my dark place in my brain. I wanted to save her, I never wanted her to feel like an outcast or anything like that, all I wanted was for her til feel the smallest love that I tried to give her, still, it wasn't enough for her. For at least all I wanted was to see for her to see the light in her eyes, all the happiness that she gave me all the time, all the talked that we would have about from nothing to something, all the good thing that she had done for me, was what flid my body, and brain, while I felt my body drag it into a dark place... 

Opening my eyes, I felt something laying on my body looking around the place, it was Eret's tent, in my hand, a drip was secured in my hand " what the -" pushing myself to sit in the bed, something hit my head what felt like a real hit, then it hit me what I had tried to do after Y/n was going down, it just didn't want her to be alone, if she died, so yeah.

TW: DEATH, CPR, SUICIDE -----> IF YOU ARE SENSITIVE PLEASE SKIP THIS CHAPTER! 

As she said those words, my heart stop beating " Wilbur?" turning around, I saw Wil standing in the forest holding a torch in his hand, lighting up his face he smiled. He fucking smiled, at what was going on!  " no!" turning my head, Y/n fall to the ground, the knife falling first, landing with the sharp in the ground letting it stand up. I sprinted to her side, tears running down her cheeks, making lines on her cheeks, while her face was turning more white and colorless by the secondes, my hand moved her neck feeling for her plus, but there was no one " Y/n! Y/n please" I scream shaking her hard, trying to her to react " Tubbo, no!" Technoblade scream as he ran to my side, pulling me away from her " no! no l-et m-e be wit-h her" I cried as he pulled me away " sorry, the little boy we need to get to save her first" Techno said, as he let go of me, grabbing a rope " what are you doing?" Techno didn't respond instead grabbed my wrist tying them together " stop, please. No!" I scream, as I moved my hand trying to get away from his grip " I'm sorry, tubs" he said, pushing my hand up against the tree tying them there " let me! I hate you!" I cried, from the pain that both the ropes and the thought of Y/n leaving me, instead of saying anything, Techno turned his back on me returning to the scene that was only a few feet away from me " what the fuck, you Techno, let me go!" I continued to scream at him, but he didn't even look at me.  

Eret had not moved away from Y/n's body, instead, he was sitting on the ground holding Y/n in his arm rocking her in his arm " it is all okay, it is all okay" he continued to say, clapping her back. The whole camp was in a heel stop, all felt like everything was moving slow, as Bad and Techno came running past, their shadows were right behind them closing my eyes, I felt everything turned around, still, I wanted to see what they were going to do about the whole scene. Opening my eyes once again, Y/n was on the ground, Eret was sitting on top of her banging his hand on her chest, while Bad was tieing some banged on her wrist stopping the bleeding " come on Y/n! Breath!" Eret yelled, hammering his hands on her chest still, I wanted to jump in to get him to stop hurting her, but couldn't do thank you to Techno. " Eret!" Bad suddenly yelled, raising my head at Eret, that stop pumping on her chest " she has a puls" Eret head dropped, letting his body glid down taking her hand " thank god!" his eyes went to me while trying to get his breathing back to normal.

  " Why is Tubbo tied to the tree?" Eret asked, looking at me, while I twisted my hands only to curse more pain to spread on my wrist" no worries for you, just so doesn't do something dumb" Techno smirked at him, while he took Y/n in his arms " is she breathing?" Tommy asked running up to him, my heart beating a little bit as he asked that " yeah, yeah, Y/n is breathing and is alive" Tommy smiled, then turned his head to me. " What the fuck! Why is Tubbo tied to the tree!" Tommy snapped at Technoblade, walking to me pulling out his knife " Tommy, don't you do it!" Techno snapped at him, making Tommy smile " oh yeah, what are you gonna do, bitch" slighting the knife on the rope, letting it cut over in half, my hands slowly fell down, relaxing on the ground " omg, Tommy" I smiled at him, grabbing my wrist feeling how the rope had cut into my wrist leaving marks " come on" reaching out his hand at me, grabbing it he pulled me up on my feet walking passed Techno, I felt his hard eyes, as they followed me all the way from the place. 

 That night, me and Tommy were staying in Y/n's tent. Tommy had fallen asleep on the end of the bed, while I felt like the world was coming to an end, as the minuted. Moving around in the bed, my heart started to beat up, while sweat started to pick on my skin like I was having a nightmare while I was awake in bed, sighed hard, I kicked my legs over the bed drying some of the sweat of my forehead, looking around the tent I saw it.... the knife. It was in Tommy's belt that was hanging over his head, still, I felt a hunger to get to it, even that it was a bad idea, I wanted to get it so badly, leaning over Tommy's sleepy face, I smiled as I grabbed the knife from the belt. Well, you can guess what I did next if you don't well... I felt the blade cut in my wrist feeling the pain from the blade, I wanted to scream aloud but pressed my lips together quick, my eyes glazed at Tommy, still laying in his bed sleeping calm, I felt the blood running down my arm, dripping on the clean linens, that once I would be mad about being dirty, now I didn't care. 

" Tubbo?" looking up again from the cutting Tommy was sitting up in the bed right next to me, his face in the horror at what I was doing to myself, still I dragged the knife one more knife before Tommy grabbed the knife " what the fuck, are you doing to yourself!" he yelled throwing the knife away from me. " I-I just want-" I didn't get to answer before Tommy pulled me into a hug " it is okay... ill forgive you" he cried, I felt his wars tears landing in my neck " I'm sorry" feeling hurt of what I had done to myself and Tommy, I cried into his chest. We stayed like that for some time, meanwhile, the blood continued to glide down " lets get y-ou clean" Tommy suddet pushing me away from him, I didn't want him to let go, at that moment he felt so warm " Tommy it i-s so co-ld" I suddet, as Tommy finally saw my arm " Tubbo, fuck! stay here!" Tommy yelled sprinted out of the tent " help! help!" I heard him yelled, before I passed out in the bed.