Can he be fixed?

(9)IT was another sleepover

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(After Ej found him)  Ricky's POV

The rest of the ride we rode in complete silence. He liked me, he actually liked me. The truth is I've liked Ej since about a week into rehearsals for HSM but I never really wanted too say anything. I mean he was dating my ex that I still liked, and was a senior, besides who would want too date the skater freak thats broken, and from a broken family? But here we were driving back too my place in his car. As we turned down my street tears began too fall from my eyes, what was I going too tell my dad? What was I going too tell my mom? What was I going too tell my friends? Would my parents except that I like boys? Will my dad kick me out? What will moms new boyfriend think about me dating another boy? Will my friends hate me for dating someone new? As these thoughts flooded into my head I pulled my knees too my chest trying too block everything out. 

"Ricky, hey you okay? Whats wrong?" After sitting there falling into a spiral a voice broke through. Focusing on there voice I came back too reality too find Ej sitting next too me with a concerned look on his face. Shaking my head I said nothing as I faced forward, trying too avoid eye contact but it was no use. As tears continued too fall down my cheeks I began too tell him everything on my mind. After I had gotten everything out I couldn't hold myself together anymore, laying my head on my knees I avoiding eye contact, as I tried too calm myself down. Just as I though there was no hope in anything I felt someone grab my hand. Surprised by the contact I stopped breathing for a second until they slowly started too rub circles on the back of my hand. Slowly my anxiety melted away as they continued too rub the back of my hand while, they started up the car and  continuing our journey back too my house.

Once we pulled up too my house he turned off his car and turned towards me, but I couldn't look him in the eyes. Gently he grabbed my chin forcing me too look him in the eyes before he started talking. "So.... do you want too tell everyone what happened on the ride back?" Sighing I began too think, I haven't really come out too anyone but Ej at this point, this was all knew too me. Finally looking into his eyes, I knew that I was ready too tell them, so slowly I nodded my head as I watched a small smile come onto his face. Kissing my cheek he got out of the car and quickly walked around too my door pulling it open for me, raising my eye brow I rolled my eyes as he grinned back at me. Then grabbing my hand he closed the door before pulling me towards the house. Once we got too the front porch I tried too step back and leave but Ej had a tight grip on my hand which allowed him too pull me back. "Ricky it's okay they will except you, and if they don't then I'll take you with me too college, okay?" After he said that I couldn't help but let out a small laugh before slowly enter the house with Ej in toe.

Once we walked into the house we noticed all of our friend sitting in the living room talking amongst one another and my dad watching over them. As my anxiety starts too rise I squeeze his hand one more time before letting it go and walking into the living room slowly. After standing there for a couple minutes, while everyone else was oblivious too our arrival Ej cleared his throat which got everyones attention as they all rush towards us asking what had happened. Not really wanting too talk I let Ej do all the talking while my dad walked over and pulled me away from the group. Nervously I looked down at the ground as he asked too see my wrist. After standing there in silence I pulled up my wrist showing him the cuts, that were now turning pink, that littered my wrist. Sighing he tried too find something too say but I beat him too it "we were playing truth or dare and they asked me what my biggest secret was." Nodding his head he gave me a hug before pulling my sleeve down for me, and pushing me towards my friends.

Once I got over too my friends I locked eyes with Ej while he listened too Ashlynn tell him something. After a while we all decided too have another sleepover since it was already 7 pm, and we all didn't really get too hang out. So heading upstairs I pulled out a couple of games out as everyone got into a circle. After name rounds of Apples too Apple, and a very intense game of Spicy Uno we all became tired, so saying waving goodnight too my dad we all walked up too my room. In the same sleep positions as last night we all laid down as Kourtney and Carlos fought over what movie we should watch. After 5 minutes of the two going back and forth Ej leaned into my ear and whispered "So when should we tell them?" Grabbing his hand I leaned in and whispered "I don't know, are you sure that they will except us?" Frowning he squeezed my hand from under the blanket we had draped over the two of us before whispering back "Oh course they will except us, you worry too much. We will be fine." Nodding my head a slow smile crept onto my face before saying "let's not tell them anything, let them figure it out." Nodding his head he smiled as me before squeezing my hand and settling back in too see we hadn't missed much.

Finally Kourtney convinced everyone too watch IT part 2 which I wasn't too keen on, but I didn't want too disagree with anyone. Not even halfway through the movie I was hiding underneath my blanket shaking. Ej must of noticed at some point because he started too pry the blanket from my grasps as he pulled me into his chest, slowly rubbing circles on my back trying too calm me down. Eventually I calmed down and leaned closer into his chest not really watching the movie anymore. After laying like that for a while I let out a long yawn drawing Ej's attention back too me. Continuing too rubbing soothing circles on my back he whispered in my ear "go too sleep Ricky, you've had a long day. I got you don't worry." As I listen too him whispering soothing words too me I fell into a deep sleep.

Ej's POV

After Ricky fell asleep I pulled the blanket closer too us as I gently kissed his head. Cautiously looking around the room I let out the breath I was holding, seeing as everyone too focused on the movie too be even looking over at us. So smiling I look back at the screen, and try too focus on the movie. But after trying for a couple minutes I give up and let my thoughts take over, as I began too think about what school would be like. Would we tell everyone eventually? Would this be a secret till after I had left for college? When would we tell our parents? As I cautioned too sit there the questions began too swim around my head thinking about everything. By the end of the movie I was struggling too keep my eyes open. As I watched the tv be turned off I let my eyes close as I gently moved  closer too Ricky, then I fell into a deep sleep.