TW: THIS STORY WILL CONTAIN SELF HARM, EATING DISORDER, AND WILL ALSO CONTAIN ABUSE. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED. Nini and Ricky just had an amazing winter break together, but now they had too head back too school. Going back they figure out what the next...
The song at the top is what she plays later on in the chapter, it will tell you when too listen too it.
Ej's POV
As soon as I got off the phone with Ricky I quickly grabbed my keys before leaving his house. Climbing into my car I drove towards North High, as I tried too process today. This all happened because a question, a question that he didn't want too answer. But what was the answer too his question? Did he just not want too hurt my feelings? Or was it because of something else? Before I knew it I was outside of North High, so rolling down my window I began looking around for any sign of the curl head teen. After I had almost given up the hope of finding him, there he stood at the top of one of North Highs skate ramps. Rolling my eye and silently laughing too myself I drove into the parking lot before parking and getting out of the car. Just as I was about too go over and confront the curly headed boy I got a text from Ashlynn.
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After putting my phone away I stalked over too where the curly head boy was. "Hey Bowen!! When did you become so fast." This defiantly got his attention as he looked over at me he started moving too much causing him too loose his balance and fall off his skateboard. Worried, I ran over too where he was too see him already getting up, so as a sort of peace offering I grabbed his board as it rolled by, rolling it back towards him. Stepping on it he quickly picked it up before looking me in my eyes "So why did you want too come and find me so bad Caswell?" Rolling my eyes I ignored his snarky comment and shot one right back. "Coming from the guy who just fell for me." After saying that his eyes went wide as his ear turned pink not really looking me in the eyes. Laughing I decided too clarify "I meant you falling off your skateboard Bowen." This comment didn't seem too help that much as he said a quiet "oh" and started too silently walk towards my car.
Once we were on the road I decided too fill in the silence and try and acknowledge the elephant in the room. "So we have a long ride ahead of us, might as well talk too each other." Then there was silence, all he did was sit there and stare out the window, so I tried again. "So you want too play a game, I vote for truth or dare." That finally got him too talk "No, no more truth or dare, no more talking. Just leave me alone with your senior sunshine act." If I hadn't been driving I problem would have kicked him, so instead I went off on him "WHAT is your problem? All Im doing is trying too talk with you and you keep on pushing me away. I want too talk about what happened, please. I want too know why you ran out of the house, I want too know if I'm the reason for it, and how I can fix it. Please Ricky talk too me."
This must have broke him because the next thing I knew my car was filled the sound of him softly sobbing, so not being able too take the pressure of it anymore I pull over on the shoulder of the road and park the car. Then before he could say anything I pull him into a hug, pulling his face into my chest slowly rubbing circles on his back. After rubbing soothing circle on his back for a while he pulled away and looked up into my eyes. As we sat there looking at each other I couldn't help but let my eye flicker from his eyes too his lips. Slowly I leaned in and placed a gentle kiss on his lips before pulling away after a couple seconds. Looking into his eyes I said the thing I've wanted too say since we kissed the first time "Ricky I like you, and I want too be more then friends. I know that you and Nini just broke up but I want too show you, that you can love again." Smiling he leaned in and left a small kiss on my lips before saying "I like you too, and would love too be with you." Smiling even bigger I lean in for a small kiss before grabbing his hand and driving towards his house.
(A couple days later) Nini's POV
The next couple of days I focused on packing up everything for the conservatory. Currently I was in my room when I came a crossed a picture, the picture of Ricky and I's first valentines day together, next too it was a strip of photos from our first date at the carnival, then a small polaroid picture of the two of us sitting up in my room. One by one I picked up little memories from both times we dated setting them all into a shoe box. Looking in the mirror a couple tears fell from my eyes, as they landed on the golden colored necklace he had given on opening night. Letting all my tear fall freely I slid down the front of my dresser as I pulled on my necklace, before unclipping.
It was my dream, it was what could take me too the next level, it was something I had too do. Sighing I set the necklace in the box before closing the box up, wishing for it too disappear with in my closet. Closing my eyes I close the door too my closet before sitting down on my bed and pulling out my keyboard and playing a couple cords. Then everything came out, leaving nothing inside of me, wanting all the pain too be gone, wanting it all too be left in this song. (Play the song that's at the top) After the last cord I fell back on my bed letting tear fall from my eyes, why does this feel so wrong? Why does something that can help me build myself, help me improve myself, feel so wrong? Before I knew it I was asleep, letting these thoughts fall away.
