Can he be fixed?

(21) I'm here for you

Ej's POV

The only way I could describe waking up was warmth. Slowly opening my eyes I find the cutest thing ever, Ricky was curled up into my chest, curls laying in front of his face, and his arms tightly wrapped around Franklin. Smiling I kiss his forehead as I pull him closer, not wanting too let go yet. Looking around the room I see everyone still asleep so I decide too stay like this for a little. But after a couple minutes I feel Ricky stirring next too me, so kissing him on the forehead again I try too brush the curls out of his eyes, as I smile at him. Opening his eyes he smiles back from behind his unruly curls. After laying there smiling at each other I finally decided too get up, so unravelling myself from Ricky I start too stand up, which causes Ricky too pout. Laughing lightly I lean down and pick him up, allowing him too wrap hims legs around my waist and arms around my neck as I carrying him out of the room quietly, I see him flinch but I decided too ignore it thinking I was only imagining it.  (For the purpose of the story Ricky is going too be 5'8 and Ej is going too be 6'0)

Once we made it too the main room we found Ms.Jenn and Mr. Mazzara sitting at the piano talking quietly. As we I carried Ricky with me over too the bleacher the two teacher noticed us as they said a quick good morning before going back too there conversation. After a couple minutes of sitting there on the bleacher in silence Ms. Jenn call the two of us over. "Ej, Ricky, I have know you both since the beginning of the year and I've heard from Mr. Mazzara that you both are trust worthy, so I was hoping I could trust you guys too go pick up breakfast from Dunkin down the road. Looking at each other we nod, so telling Ricky too get the list I quietly go back into the room we were sleeping in and grabbed my key, wallet, and one of my hoodies for each of us. Once I got back out too the main room I saw Ricky writing down something the teacher was telling him, so once he finished I wrapped a arm around his waist, allowing him too grab the list before we both said a quick "Be back." before walking out of the theatre room. But before we could leave Ms. Jenn gives me her key so we both could get into the building and tries too give me some cash, but shaking my head I take the key with me and walk out of the theater room with Ricky.

Theres a side of me that I try too hide as much as possible, my parents money. Ever since I could remember my dad has been the top tech company owner in the technology industry. So money has never really been a problem, or at least in my fathers eyes. I appreciate the life style and I love that my dad owns his own company but money isn't everything, and sometimes having to much money in your life or your family can be embracing. Hearing my dads business associates call him Cash Caswell, or only hear him talk about money, doesn't really give me the best feeling. Very few times have I use the credit card my dad gave me, that he give me my allowance on. Over the years I haven't really touched the thing, the last time was when I helped someone pay the fee too be in one of the away games for water polo.

Once we got too Dunkin I order 4 dozen variety donuts and coffees for everyone, lets just say I felt sorry for Ricky while he sat there holding over half of the drinks. After a very careful drive we made it back too the school and started taking all of the food back to the theater room in shifts until we had finally gotten everything set up on a couple foldable tables Ms. Jenn and Mr. Mazzara had managed too borrow. After a very talkative breakfast Zack Roy walked in acting all smug and happy for no presentable reason, but finally he told us why. He had gotten North High too fund the play, but rolling my eyes I look over at Ricky who didn't seem that impressed either. But after his little happiness show Ms. Jenn made us all do a couple more team exercises before finally allowing us too go home.

Ricky's POV

Finally at 11 Ms. Jenn allowed us too leave, so packing up our stuff Ej and I bid everyone a quick goodbye before walking out the door with a couple other kids who's rides were already here. Once we got in the car he leaned over there council and kissed me gently on the lips before biting my bottom lip. Gasping I allow him access as he begins exploring the inside of my mouth. It felt so good, but I couldn't let it continue, if I let it continue he could find out what I was hiding. So pulling away I peck him on the lips trying not too make it suspicious, but he just smiles and starts too drive me home. Staying silent most of the ride I try too focus on the music that he was playing, but I couldn't, all I could think about was how I was supposed too hide what I had done too myself.

Once we got too my house I quickly jump out saying goodbye before trying too make a break for it, but he sees right through me. Grabbing my wrist he try too slowly me down but he grabbed the bad wrist, crying out in pain I try too get him too let go, which that fortunately works. Scared of what he would say next I bolt into my house and run up stares into my room, locking my bedroom door before throwing my bag down on my bed. Still anxious I start too pace until I hear someone trying too open my door. Scared I start too back into the farthest corner as I hear people talking on the other side. As I slide down into the corner I start too see black spots, then I hear it, the door opened and in came two people. But by then it was too late, my vision was cover in dark spots as my heart sped up, until I passed out.

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When I woke up the first thing I noticed was that I wasn't in my room, I was laying on the couch. Confused I start too sit up and start too get off the couch until I hear Ej's voice "Don't even think about it Richard." Looking too my left I see Ej sitting there with a straight face as he stared at me, so moving into a sitting position I wait for him too make the next move. After a couple minutes of us sitting there in silence I feel tear fall down my face before he asks "Why didn't you tell me? Do you not trust me?" Shaking my head I tell him thats not what is was, when really it was the opposite. I trust him and love him and care for him so much I don't want too ruin his life, we had been having a great time and I didn't want too ruin it so I hid it. After sitting there explaining that too him I watch his expressions changed until I finish talking, then I couldn't bear looking him in the eyes anymore. So pulling my knees too my chest I begin too slip into my mind, thinking of all the outcomes. Spoiler alert "Over half of the outcomes end with Ej breaking up with me."

I didn't notice what I was doing too myself until I heard Ej gasp. Looking down at my hands I watch him open them and show me what he had freaked about. The inside of my hand looked like I had cut my hand completely open, by how much blood was there. Sighing he grabbed a tissue and dapped at my hand as I started apologizing telling him that I didn't mean too and that I didn't even know that could happen. But it was too late, the damage was done and Ej's mind was most likely already made up on why my hand was cover in red. After he had cleaned my hand I sat there not saying a word as I stared in front of me trying too block everything out. As my heart speeds up and my breathing quickens I begin too hear a ring in my ear, until I hear his voice. "Ricky hey, Im here for you, I know you didn't mean too do that I just was a little freaked out is all. Bubs please focus on my voice, I love you and I need you too focus on my voice. Please don't slip away again Bubby, please."

After a couple minutes I finally got my breathing under control, and I slowly got up from the couch and headed towards the kitchen, of course followed by Ej. After getting a cup of water I sat down at the table avoiding eye contact. Once I finished my drink I tried too think of something that could break the ice between us, then an idea popped into my head. Pulling Ej upstairs I drag him towards my room and walk into my bathroom, letting go of his hand. After letting his hand go I walk over too the toilet and pull out my secret stash, then throw the small pieces of metal into the water I look over too Ej before flushing them. After watching them disappear down the drain I sit down on the ground as I feel tears start too fall down my face.

Ej's POV

As I watch him fall to the ground I couldn't take it anymore, walking over I pick him up slowly and pull him into a tight hug as I feel his tear go into my shirt. Slowly I walk out of the bathroom and set him down on the bed before laying down next too him. After kissing him on his forehead I turn on the Tv and started looking through Disney+ until I found a Radom movie, which I accidentally turn on the Captain America: The First Avenger. Smiling I say "Sorry my go too movies are always Marvel movies" Laughing he says that he hadn't actually watch any of them. Looking at him weirdly I say "I guess we will have too change that. We are going too watch through all of the Marvel movies together, and then you will tell me your favorite movie and your favorite character." Smiling he nods in agreement before snuggling into my side as the movie starts. As Chris Evans appears on the screen I realize, another date completed before whispering, "Im here for you" as we both got immersed in the movie.