TW: THIS STORY WILL CONTAIN SELF HARM, EATING DISORDER, AND WILL ALSO CONTAIN ABUSE. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED. Nini and Ricky just had an amazing winter break together, but now they had too head back too school. Going back they figure out what the next...
I'M SORRY I FORGOT TOO POST A CHAPTER LAST FRIDAY, I'VE BEEN VERY BUSY AND I'M TRYING TOO SORT STUFF OUT. BETWEEN SCHOOL, FAMILY, MY CLUB IM IN, AND THIS STORY LIFE HAS BECOME QUITE BUSY. BUT HERES ANOTHER CHAPTER :)
Ricky's POV
As soon as I got inside Ej asked how it went, but all I could do was fall into his arms and cry. It wasn't just my dad I was leaving anymore, it was Big Red, Ms.Jenn, the theater kids, and Ej. How could I leave behind the life that I had built? I wouldn't be able too audition for the fall musical, or be there for the first day of school, or be there for opening night. Half of my summer would be waisted in Chicago with my mom, and Todd, half of my school year would be worthless because I will know no one. Theres no point too Chicago, but Utah is everything too me, but I guess the judge and the jury just don't know that. After I finally stopped cry I picked my head up off of Ej's chest before grabbing the court paper off the table and gesturing too the stairs. Nodding his head I felt my dad watch us as I dragged Ej up stairs silently.
After sitting down on my bed I scoot away from Ej before hand him the paper, and looking down in my lap, not really wanting too see his reaction. Once he had finished reading over the paper I felt the bed move and his arms wrap around me. Thats when I broke, tear started falling from my eyes as I thought about leaving everything behind. I have until June, then on June 17th I would be flown out of Salt Lake and too Chicago too spend half of my summer in a house I don't know, with a man I don't know, and a mom that I might as well not know. No skating with Big Red, no hanging out the theater gang, and no saying goodbye too Ej when he goes off too college. How could the court do this too me? How could they not ask me what I think of all of this? Tears continued too fall from my eyes as my mind continued too go drift into the problem.
Too inmgoresed in my mind I didn't even feel the bed move, but the next thing I knew Ej had pulled me onto his lap, soon moving me too where only my head was in his lap. As we sat there in silence I felt him slowly run a hand through my curls as if trying too detangle them. As he continued this he quietly started reciting lines too himself. Smiling I sit there and listen too him recite his lines until he stops, this was when I realize he was supposed too start singing. Smirking I nudged him, telling him too sing, so smiling down at me he quietly starts too sing 'The Mob Song'. Poking my nose he finishes the song before gently kissing my lips. Snuggling closer into his lap, I smile up at him, then he gasped. Worried I sit up right before he bolt off the bed and starts too look around my room frantically for something, which he eventually found.
Laying down on the bed he motions for me too do the same before opening up the notebook he had grabbed. Smiling he begins too write down a list of activities, and thats when I realize, these were date ideas. Smiling at him I kiss his cheek as I watch him fill the sheet with countless date ideas. Play in a bounce castle, watch the sunset together, play mini golf, and more. I don't know how we were going too do all of these before I had too leave, but I would do anything for this boy. Even if that really means that we really were going too travel too another country, then so be it. Grabbing the notebook away from him I rip the page out and pin it too the cork board hanging on my wall. Then turning back too my bed I lay back down next too him saying "I wouldn't trade you for the world." Smiling back down at me he kisses my nose before I start too close my eye, as I soon fall asleep in his arms. Guess you don't have too be on a date too do that.
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This is the end of the chapter :)
*Haha you though the chapter was done, Im not that cruel. Maybe. :)* *Skip a couple days*
Over the next couple of days I haven't really been focused, wether it was in class, at home, or even in theater. All I could think about is how I wouldn't be spending my summer with everyone else, how I wouldn't be able too do both musicals like everyone else, and how I would be shuttled back and forth till I'm 18 unlike everyone else. Currently I'm 16, my birthday is around the last week of school, so I will have too wait until the very end of my senior year too be able too decide anything for myself. So as I walk into theater I couldn't help but try and push these thoughts too the back of my head. Besides Ej and my dad are the only ones knows about what whats going on, and honestly everyone is going too be in for a shock. Sitting down in my usual spot, I start too pull out my script as I reread the scene that I've been struggling too memorize.
After reading over the scene a couple of times I feel someones hand land on my shoulder. Looking up I see Ms. Jenn standing there looking down at me concerned "Ricky hey did you hear me? I want you a Ashlyn too practice your dancing for the ballroom scene." Nodding my head I stood up before discarding my script onto the floor and following Ms. Jenn too the middle of the room. Soon Ashyln and I were standing hand in hand slowly trying too dance around the middle of the theater room, you know minus me constantly stepping on her feet. Finally after two more minutes of me constantly stepping on Ashes feet, Ms. Jenn lets us stop. Running a hand through my hairs I lean up against the closest wall trying too calm myself down. Just as I was about too fall into another anxiety attack I hear Ms. Jenn talk again " Okay everyone here are permission slips you have too bring with you tonight for the over night workshop at the school." After saying that the bell rang, and everyone started too head out the door while I still stood there trying too control my breathing. But as I watched everyone leave I see Ej shoulder his bag and walk towards the door, and my world comes crashing down.
Falling too the floor I curl up in a ball as the air no longer is coming into my lungs. He was leaving, just like Nini, just like my mom did, and just like everyone else. Everyone always leaves me, they alway decide everything in my life, then leave, and leave me broken. As I fell into my thoughts I felt someone grab my shoulder, causing me too shudder and look up, locking eyes with blue ones. Blues eyes that I knew oh so well, blue eyes that belonged too Ej. Being so lost in my thoughts, and breaking out of the anxiety attack, I didn't even notice that he was speaking until I looked at his mouth. His mouth was moving but no sound was coming out, all I could hear was a slight white noise ringing. But finally the worlds noise broke through all the anxiety and I heard his voice "Ricky, Ricky, hey Bubs you okay? Please answer me, I'm getting worried." After hearing him say this I slowly nodded my head as I locked eyes with his, sighing he began helping me slow my breathing down as he sat a crossed from me on the floor.
Eventually I got my breathing under control with the help of Ej. Looking over at Ms. Jenn I see her on the phone with someone, then I hear her talking " Hey Mike it's Jennifer, Ricky's theater teacher..." As I heard her talking too my dad I quickly started getting up, ignoring Ej's protests and took the phone form her. After taking the phone I hang up the call before apologizing, shocked she just stares at me surprised by my boldness. Sighing I asked her too promise not too tell my dad about today, knowing that he has enough too worry about. After staying quiet for a second she agreed too not say anything, as long as things don't get worse. Nodding my head I thank her before grabbing my stuff and Ej's hand, walking out of the theater room, telling Ms. Jenn that we would be back in a couple hours.
This is the actual end :) Sorry this chapter had multiple purposes so I didn't really know what too call this chapter*
