💫MCYT One-Shots💫

🖤I'm not coming home🖤

⚠️CW: panic attack, Derealization/Depersonalization, Ghostbur content (I miss him too don't worry🥲)⚠️

This was not requested, I just wanted pain. Yes I'm sorry-

Anyways

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💙Ghostbur's POV💙

I was stuck wandering and pacing around the slightly trashed walk way of the old underground train station as usual for the seemingly millionth time just today and watching as the ghost trains, that I wasn't aloud to step foot in or even get within ten feet of, come in and out of the station to pick up the shadow people that wandered along the station with me. This had pretty much become a normal day to day activity at this point as pacing was just about all anyone could do around here.

The shadow people had seemingly lost their interest in me and they have completely started ignoring that I was there or that I even existed. They used to be so talkative even though half the time I didn't understand what they were saying but after a few years they now barely say a peep, if anything at all, if they do end up cross my path. I won't lie, this did in fact upset me very much for a while when it was first happening but I was quick to get over it.

As I walked down the seemingly never ending path way I couldn't help but notice just how bare it was this way. There was no shadows, there was no sounds of the ghost trains, I couldn't even hear the annoying announcements that would come on the speakers to notify of the on coming trains, in fact I couldn't hear anything at all. It was an unsettling silence that felt almost suffocating. There was barely any trash in my wake and there wasn't as much of that weird graffiti that I would normally spot here and there along on the walls. I don't recognize this area very well, if at all.

Was I lost?

Wait no, I couldn't have been. How could I get lost when this place is literally just a straight line from North to South? Or South to North? East to West? I really didn't know. I've lost all of my sense of direction, who knows what way I've been walking for the past gods know how long. Maybe I just walked farther then normal. Yeah, that's probably the most likely possibility of what might've happened. Maybe one of those signs that were hanged above me on the ceiling will tell me which part of the station I'm in. I looked at the ceiling above me, searching for the red glow of the screen from the devices. Once I found it just a bit ahead of me I quickly sprinted over, skidding to a halt once I was in range close enough to read what the device was displaying. I squinted slightly so I could read the red glowing text before my eyes widened in shock.

It wasn't screening what area I was in, nor was it showing what train had just departed, or even what train was coming in for drop off and/or pick up. Instead of any of that, the bold red glowing letters read something quite unsettling and left me with an empty and sick feeling.

Who's Ghostbur?

I'm Ghostbur? Right? People remember me right? I don't think I was gone for for long, was I? I looked down at my hands in a panic, flipping them so I could see my palms and the back of my hands. I'm real right? My breath quickened as the familiar feeling of my blue tears falling down my cheeks started once again. I backed away into the wall before promptly sliding down it with my knees and hands to my chest.

I was real right? I'm not forgotten? No I couldn't be, Tommy, Phil, Techno, Fundy, everyone couldn't just...forget me can they? How long has it been? How long have I been trapped here? How long has it been since Dream brought me here?

I want to go home. I want to go back home. I want to see L'manburg or even L'tent. Pay a visit to my son's home or even to Techno's Cabin. Maybe stop by to Eret's castle and apologize for how I treated them when I was Alivebur or I could pay a visit to Jack Manifold. He was a kind man that I was known to over look when I was alive. I really don't care where I go but I don't want to be here. I don't want to be here anymore and I didn't want to be here in the first place.

My body trembled as soft sobs admit from my throat. My chest was tight in sorrow and my hands were clammy in fear. My head was pounding in frustration and by how confused I was. I was going through to so many different emotions all at once and it didn't help my overwhelming sense. Soon amongst the sorrow, confusion, frustration, and sick feeling dread soon joined the group and became quickly over powering as I came to a realization.

I'm not going to be able to go home and see the familiar and comforting faces of everyone I've ever cared for.

I'm never going to ever go back home again, am I?

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A/N

Hello everyone! Just wanted to quickly let everyone know about story updates.

Forget me not (Dad!Schlatt AU) now has two chapters done

Just my imagination (Imaginary!Ranboo AU) has its first chapter up and the second is on its way.

And finally False Lullaby (Winged!Wilbur x Siren!Sally) is being worked on and will be out very soon hopefully. So keep an eye out for that!

More one-shots are on their way!

Thank you all! <333 ~Echo