Loving You Out Loud: JJK

Chapter 30

Y/n's Pov

Jungkook looked at me in shock when our daughter recognized him. What kind of mother would I be if I kept Eunji's father a secret from her? She was only a little girl; she didn't deserve to be lied to.

At first I was in shock, confused and downright terrified when she first asked me about him, but I figured she had the right to know. I ended up telling her that her Papa was a really busy and successful man, who loved her very much, but his work didn't allow him to visit her. I showed her interviews, videos, listened to music and watched all of his live concerts with her. Even though every time I saw his face my heart felt like it was being ripped out of my chest, I continued to do so. She truly admired her dad.
After a while, my curious little girl wanted to know what her poppa was saying in the interviews and what  the lyrics to his songs meant. I wasn't fluent in Korean by any means and years of not speaking the language, left me unable to translate. I still wanted my babygirl to have some connection with her father, so I enrolled her in Korean school. She's only 3, so of course she not fluent in either language but I'm hoping that Jungkook can help her learn. Well, that's if he wants to be involved in her life.

Honestly, I'm experiencing so many mixed emotions. Part of me still holds bitterness and animosity towards Jungkook for not being there. I can still remember how full of despair and sadness I was when I had to deliver my babygirl by myself. My mother was out of town and Justine was in the middle of a career changing meeting, so there was no one there to hold my hand through the pain, no one to help welcome my little girl into this world. I was alone; I was hurt and if I'm being frank I still am.

Though I'm still struggling with those emotions, I know that this is no fault of my daughter and to deprive her of his presence, would be unfair to not only her but to him as well. Anxious thoughts swirl in my head. I keep thinking. What if he has to make the decision where he has to chose between his career and her? I don't want my daughter to go through the same heartbreak I went through. I don't want her to feel like a mistake. I don't want me daughter to fall in love with her papa only to be left without him.

I looked over to see my daughter and the love of my life giggling as he attacked her with tickles. Loud squeals and fits of laughter escaped into the otherwise tranquil night and I found myself doting at their matching crescent eyes and bunny like smiles.

It wasn't until I looked at the clock that I acknowledged how late it was. There goes her sleep schedule.

"Hey little bun, I think it's time for you to go back to bed. You don't want to be late for Korean school tomorrow do you?"

Eunji instantly erupted in a fit of tears, looking towards her father to speak on her behalf. Jungkook simply kissed his daughters temple and said " Listen to your mama, little one. Don't worry, I'll be back in the morning to see you."

My daughter whines and cries turned into full blown sobs as she clung to her father. "Dada stay" she said through her loud sobs. "Pease dada"

Jungkook'a eyes landed on mine  pleadingly. I could tell his heart was breaking from the first time seeing his babygirl cry. He didn't say anything as he held her in a tight hug and kissed her silky hair whispering "No more crying; daddy will see you in the morning. I promise." He lifted his pinky and connected it with hers.

I couldn't take it anymore, I could feel my heart breaking as I watched my two loves teary eyed and sad at the prospect of being separated, so I finally spoke up. "Y-you can stay the night if you want. My mom is in the guest room so you'll have to stay in Eunji's room," I refused to make eye contact as I continued to speak while playing with my thumbs "Her bed is kind of small but if it can fit my mom Eunji and me it would definitely fit you and Eunji."

"Peace dada" my little girl decided to speak. God I shouldn't have asked in front of her; she'll feel rejected if he says no.

"I would love to princess."

A/N  Check out these amazing new covers that AlleyKatCos  created for this book!!! I can't chose which one I love the most so I'll leave that up to you guys.

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