Loving You Out Loud: JJK

Chapter 17

Jungkooks POV

"Jagiya! No fair I wanted that piece" I scowled at my doe as she gave the last piece of pork belly to Taehyung.

"Baby, it's only fair since we decided to go for barbecue instead of ramen. It's not like we can't order more anyway." She shrugged and placed more deungsim onto my plate.

"No. No more. It's bad enough that we had to go to the most expensive spot in town." I shot a glare at the dirty blonde who was currently stuffing his cheeks with pork belly.

This fucker had the nerve to say. "It's not like you can't afford it. You should feel proud that you are able to treat your hyungs to such a decadent dinner" Taehyung said as he reached for some bulgolgi

I smacked the bulgolgi out of his chopsticks and placed it onto my love's plate. She's been so preoccupied with serving everyone else that she hasn't eaten much herself. Come to think of it she hadn't been eating very much in general. I made a mental note to address that in a more appropriate setting, when the moment feels right.

"If anything I'm happy to be treating my love to a meal." I kissed the side of her head and piled a bit more of the cooked meat onto her bowl of rice.

"Oh, I'm just happy to be here with you guys." She took a sip of her soju and continued speaking. "If I'm being honest, it feels a bit intimidating hanging out with you guys in public."

I grabbed her hand and ran my thumb across her skin in a soothing manner. I hadn't realized how nerve wracking this must have been. It was normal for Y/n to hang out with us behind closed doors. She was always welcomed to the studio, rehearsals and she often spent a lot of time with all of us in the dorms before she and I moved in together; but this was the first time she was in a public setting with all of us. She wasn't used to the hoards of people who insisted on staring at us, making comments about us in the distance as if we weren't right there, taking unsolicited pictures of us and the onslaught of girls and guys alike, who unabashedly flirted with us.  It hadn't occurred to me how intimidating this must be for her because over the years I had grown used to it and for that I was very sorry. How could I be so insensitive?

"I'm sorry I'm just now realizing that this might be a lot of pressure for you. Do you wanna leave?"

Almost immediately she began to eagerly shake her head "No I'm just not used to it. I have to get used to it eventually right?"  Once again she nibbles on her plush bottom lip. "J-just hold my hand." Y/n placed her hand onto my lap and started eating with her free hand.

I nodded and held her hand, I was still concerned but I knew she was right. In that moment, all I wanted to do was kiss her and tell her everything was going to be alright, to relieve any anxiety that she might have  been  feeling in that moment, and more importantly to thank her for putting up with my lifestyle and dealing with the unpleasant parts of idol life.

Before I could bring myself to say another word, the waitress returned with another serving of pork belly  that Taehyung had ordered while I was speaking to Y/n.

"If there's anything else you need feel free to call me. I always aim to satisfy." She winked and slipped a small paper next to my rice bowl and sashayed away.

I rolled my eyes and crumbled the paper throwing it into an empty bowl on the table. I felt Y/n's hand slip out of my own. When I looked over at her, my heart broke. Her demeanor had changed; it was almost as if she shrunk back into herself. My poor doe's head was lowered, her shoulders curled inwards, her hands tangle within one another and  her food pushed away from her.

I reached under the table and grabbed her hand once again giving it  a soft squeeze. I leaned over and whispered in her ear. I felt the need to say exactly what was on my mind. "Nothing and no one is better than you my love. I adore you more than words could ever express and nothing will ever change that. Though I can't kiss you and comfort you the way that I want to in this moment, I want you to know that you are loved, you are appreciated, and you are embraced in all your beauty."

Y/n's POV

My eyes widened and my heart swelled. Once again I wondered how I could ever be so lucky to have a man like Jeon Jungkook. How can a man be so in tuned to my emotions without me even uttering a single word? How can someone know exactly the right words to say in a moment like this? Usually, in a battle between words of encouragement and insecurity, insecurity always wins. But Jungkook's loving words said in earnest and underlaid with raw emotions always seemed to vanquish negativity and for that I am eternally grateful.

A/N Thank you guys for being so supportive. You guys are the best. 🥺💗