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chapter 30

(Traumatic nightmares)

YONA'S POV:
I open my eyes, breathing heavily, It was a nightmare, the second one tonight, I check the alarm next to me; 4:30 a.M. , the scene of my mom getting shot in the head flashes in my head and I almost screamed, why do i have to see this each time i close my eyes? Why do I keep seeing these flashbacks, it's terrible, this shit is suffocating me, I got up forgetting about my broken leg, which made me groan in pain and fall to the ground, what ever is happening to me, I want it to stop, I am feeling dizzy, why am I suddenly being weak?

I went downstairs, slowly going down the stairs, struggling to keep my balance, I went to drink a cup of water, and as pathetic as this situation can get, the cup slipped from my hand and broke into pieces, I was so troubled I didn't even bother cleaning up the mess that I made, I climbed the stairs again, I can't breathe, what's wrong with me?

3RD POV:

"I regret killing him easily" said Doyoung to renjun, they were both in Doyoung's room
"we bombed that place right?" Asked Renjun
"yes, no fucker touches Yona and gets away alive"
"she didn't cry... I am worrying about her, her foot has been broken all day and she just endured it" said Renjun, head tilting as he tried to calm his nerves
"she- did you hear that?"

"glass breaking..? right?" Asked Renjun to make sure he didn't imagine things, they assumed Mary dropped something, but when they heard a loud thud, Doyoung forced himself to get up and open his door lazily to see what was happening

"Y-Yona!" he called when he saw the girl on her knees, head hanging low, Renjun panicked when he saw his hyung's reaction, they both rushed to her
"butterfly, look at me, what's wrong?" Said Renjun as he knelt next to her, trying to get a glimpse of her face, she raised her head slowly, she was about to talk but she suddenly covered her ears

"Yah, yah, breathe, Yona breathe, butterfly please breathe" said Doyoung as he put her hair behind her ear, he carried her to her room, leaving the door open behind him for Renjun to follow
"what's going on?" Asked a sleepy Winwin
"Yona's having a panic attack" said Renjun hurrying to her room, winwin widened his eyes in shock and followed him
"should I call the others?" asked Doyoung panicking, she shook her head, and kept gesturing towards one of the drawers next to her bed, she was sitting on the ground, trying hard not to cry, Winwin took her hands in his

"what's scaring you butterfly, we're here look, we'll protect you, what's troubling you?" he said looking right into her eyes
"My mom was there- my mom did nothing wrong... and there was blood coming out of her head- and she... she..."
At this point she was trying to inhale so hard, she put her hand on her chest pressing hard on it, Renjun hurriedly  unzipped her jacket taking it off, she took it off with all the power that she had, even though her actions looked really weak to the tree worried guys watching her

"honey do I unclasp your bra? it'll help you, you don't have to take it off I'll just unclasp it" suggested winwin with a reassuring voice, she nodded vigorously, nothing mattered at that moment, she wanted to breathe. Doyoung finally hurried back next to her with an oxygen bottle that he found in the drawer, he put it on her mouth, her hands now clenching on Doyoung's hand which carried the oxygen bottle, his eyes were fixed on her, eyeing her carefully with a very soft gaze

"Yona you're awake-" Mark stopped in his tracks, seeing the four of them on their knees, he calmly but hurriedly kneeled next to Doyoung facing her, her eyes were closed, the bottle still on her mouth, he got up and took a hair tie from her vanity, then quietly tied her hair into a low ponytail, winwin kept stroking her back, she let go of Doyoung's hand and weekly pulled her left bra strap down, her body almost falling to the ground