(Apologies and sorry's)
(TW: self harm)
Yona Stood in front of her mirror, looking at the blood droplets sliding down her hands and falling in the sink, she stared at her freshly cut hands, and she hated it. It has been days since she told Mark, Jaemin and Haechan about what happened, or at least they figured it out, she doesn't eat with them at all, she spends the whole day in her room, she enjoyed cutting her hands the first day, because her mind focused on her new cuts and forgot about what happened to her for a bit, she cut a little deeper wanting to feel more pain, maybe like that she can forget his face, and what he did to her, the blue marks on her body not helping at all, they didn't fade away, they were still there, triggering that memory even more.
For the first time in three days, she goes downstairs, it's 10 AM so nobody would be there, as it's a school day, and the others have meetings to attend, she heard noises in the living room, so she decided not to go there, and head back to her room
"Yona can you please come here" said Chenle to her, he dragged her into the living room, the 22 men sat on the sofas facing her, she looked tired, she had dark eye-bags, she was wearing shorts which exposed her bruised thighs, which by far caught all the attention.
Chenle grabbed her wrists, his eyes went wide when he saw the red stain on his hand, he showed his blood hand to kun, who lifted her sleeve a little, she tried to back away but it wasn't fast enough, as he gasped in shock
"why would you do that? Oh my god Jaemin give me the kit now" he panicked
"why on earth would you cut your hand? what if you bled to death?" asked Taeyong with a very worried voice
"why would you care?" She asked blankly, not sparing him a single glance, Taeyong closed his eyes for a moment, he remembered asking her this question the day Winwin was shot
"Yona just talk already! can't you see how worried we are? just say what fucking happened" asked Doyoung clearly losing his temper
"stop pressuring her, if I knew you were going to act like this I wouldn't have brought her here" said Chenle
"if you don't feel like telling them, then don't" said Jaemin with sincere eyes
"them? so you know??" asked Sungchan in disbelief
"this is gonna hurt ok" said Kun as he was about to clean her cuts
"I doubt that" she said, no sign of pain on her face, even though everybody knew that the cuts must be burning
"did someone kidnap you? how did you escape?" asked Jisung, she looked at him hesitating, she wasn't sure if she wanted to tell them, Winwin sighed heavily, he took her hands in his
"Listen butterfly, I really don't hate you, I'm glad nothing happened to you, if you were hurt, I know for a fact that I'd hate myself, the boys didn't mean what they said, Taeyong was born a dick, he doesn't know how to apologize, I'm so sorry we caused you pain-"
"I hate it you know, I hate that you feel that way even if you were just saying it because you were mad, I don't want to be a burden, I wanted to run the other day but my foot felt numb and I couldn't escape, I went outside because I hate seeing you injured, but as I run away from that sight, I somehow ended up being the reason you got shot, I'm sorry I can't use a gun, even looking at it scares me- I'm sorry I have breathing issues- I'm sorry I get panic attacks... I don't want to be this way, I don't want to be like that" she ran her hand through her hair trying hard not to cry
"the other day I wanted to take the bus to school, then a guy threatened me with a knife and dragged me to an abandoned building, he..." she couldn't let the words out, tears running down her face again, what a pathetic bitch I am, she thought
The boys watched her in curiosity, what could be that bad? they thought, suddenly some of them took a hint
"Why are your thighs blue... Yona?" asked Yangyang
"Baby breathe OK ? if you don't want to, then don't say it" said Mark
"it's ok" she showed him a faint smile
"he harassed me... sexually"
"WHAT? These then they are-"
"hickeys" said Jaemin finishing Jeno's statement
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The Girl | NCT mafia au
Fanfiction"All good things came with her, but so did disasters". ••••••••••••••••••••••••••• Yona is a girl with a blurry past, she seems locked in her own world, looking hoplessly average and weak, or at least that's what people get fooled into thinking, but...
