Cali Kids: XOXO Sequel (The Ranger$) #Wattys2015

20: Geovanni

Dedicated to @_ayodanni_. Hope you like it.

My name is Geovanni Frederico Sanchez & I have issues. I don't know how I can be with Jeremiah knowing what I am. Knowing what my life is like. I shouldn't be here in his house with his family. Hell, I shouldn't even be friends with Omarr. He can do such better than someone like me.

I'm drunk. I'm so fucking drunk right now that I can't really even feel my body anymore let alone tell which way is up or down. We're all at this party & everyone's supposed to be having a good time but i'm not. I look like it but i'm not. I never do. "Ok, you've had enough Geo. Give me that bottle", Remi said trying to take the bottle of vodka away from me.

I swatted away his hands, "N-no. M-mirn (mine)", I slurred. He sighed snatching it away from me when I started drinking from it again. Every since we got here i've been downing shit like it's water so i'm not just drunk but high too. I maybe took about 5 pills of what, I don't know but they weren't all the same. I probably will end up in the hospital tonight but I need this. I screwed up my face at him, "Give it back!", I snapped reaching for the bottle but he kept it outta my reach.

He doesn't understand me. I need that bottle. "St-stawp it Remi! I-I neghb (need) dert (that)!", I slurred reaching for it again but he pushed me back. I got mad, so mad at Jeremiah then. "Give it fucking back!", I yelled. He shook his head, "Geovanni stop. You don't need nothing else. You're fucked already. Now stop", he ordered but I wasn't having it.

I swung at him hitting him in the face. He stumbled back dropping the bottle & I just watched it fall & break in slow motion. It was gone. It was broken. I couldn't drink it anymore & I needed it so bad. At that moment I started crying.

I know people were staring at me but I didn't care. It was broken. "No. No. No", I screamed dropping to my knees. "Geo? Baby come on. Calm down babe & come on", Remi said into my ear pulling me up off the floor. I cried & screamed but let him practically carry me upstairs to a room away from prying eyes. When we were locked in the room he threw me on the bed & pinned me down.

I started hyperventilating. I was having flashbacks from the reason I was like this to begin with. I started fighting & screaming at him trying to get him off. "Geo! Geovanni! Baby calm down! Geo!", Remi yelled trying to calm me down but it sounded so far away. All I could here were they yelling at me telling me how stupid I was, i'm a faggot, i'm worthless, & all i'll ever be good for is hoing. I felt them touching me.

I felt so sick to my stomach with disgust. "Help! Help me! Please stop! Help!", I screamed thrashing around. He pinned me down somehow & I just cried because I knew there wasn't anything else I could do. "Geovanni?", he called wiping my tears away which was useless because I more just replaced them. "Baby look at me", he whispered. I shook my head squeezing my eyes closed even tighter then before. "Fuck, Geovanni fucking look at me", he snapped.

I slowly opened my eyes to see a worried looking Jeremiah staring down at me. I shook my head, "I'm sorry. I-I'm so so-sorry", I cried. He looked hurt before pulling me into a hug. I cried hugging him so tight I worried he couldn't breathe but I never let go & he of me. "Tell me what happened? Why did you end up on the hospital all those times? What's hurt you so bad that you're hurting yourself baby? I just want you to be ok. I don't like this Geovanni & then you hit me. Talk to me", he demanded. He didn't ask, he demanded & it's been long overdue since i've told him.

I tried pulling away from him but he wouldn't let go. "Stop. Talk", he said. I sniffed. "I'm sorry", I whispered my eyes glazing over. "As a kid I was pretty happy. Content you know? That was when my papa was alive. He was my hero. I wanted to be like him when I grew up & I adored him", I stopped to sniffle & wipe my face. "He was the best papa anyone could ever have. He worked so hard to make sure that we were ok. He always made sure we were ok. He would come home from work late at night but he would always make sure to let me know he was there & that he loves me. Everything was so good until he fell asleep driving home from work. He was so tired Jeremiah. I knew he barely slept but he always told me he was fine, he just needed to see us smile & everything was fine", I paused taking a deep breath before continuing.

"I was 6 years old when the police came knocking on the door telling me that they were sorry for my loss. They said he died on impact & shit just went downhill from there", I laughed humorlessly. "You know I was just 7 when I got my first beating then I think a month later I was raped by mommy's new boyfriend. You know what she told me? Hmm? She told me it was my fault. She told me that everything that was wrong with her life was my fault. My papa dying, her being an alcoholic hoe, the beatings, the rape, all my fault. Mommy's new boyfriend wasn't the only man to hit this ass. I became a hoe. I was being pimped out by mommy & her boyfriend who sometimes got him a turn too. Shut the fuck up & take it you little bitch! I thought you liked dick in your mouth & up your ass! Shut the fuck up before I really give you a reason you scream he told me. Behave or i'll beat your ass black & blue", I chuckled humorlessly again.

"Disgusting! Nasty! Dirty! Used! Worthless! Who the fuck could ever want me!? I'm fucked up & used! I just want it all to stop! I want to forget! He did so much shit to me & she just fucking let him! She tried to testify against me when he was arrested saying it was all my fault. That I wanted him & all those other men to fuck me. I hate her so much Remi. I hate her. I hate her. I hate her. I'm sorry", I screamed before breaking out in a sobbing mess.

He just held me & rocked us back & forward shushing me. He kissed me on the forehead, "It's ok. I'm right here. You don't have to go through this alone. I'm right here baby. I won't let anyone hurt you like that ever again. I won't. I swear I won't", I whispered in my ear. In that moment I knew I loved him. He doesn't need to be with someone like me though. "I love you Geovanni Frederico Sanchez. I'm gone help you. We're gonna make it through this. I won't let you let them win", he promised. I pecked him on the lips feeling drained & light headed. "I love you Jeremiah", I whispered looking into his eyes before everything blurred into darkness.
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«Oh my goodness! I feel bad for writing this. Hell I cried a little just writing it. Geovanni is so strong & beautifully broken. The next chapter will be out probably later today or tonight but definitely before the day is over. Any mistakes I will fix later & don't forget to vote & comment. Deuces!✌»