That night in Monaco

Chapter 15

"She needed him."

The qualifications ended and Charles finished 7th. I knew that it wasn't a good place for him and I also understood that I was the reason for this. I hated this. I  didn't want to make Charles fail. This was all my fault. I shouldn't have talked to him before he raced. He was thinking about my situation while driving. It couldn't have taken a lower place or worse he could have crushed. I had to apologise but now wasn't the right time. I decided to leave him alone until he spoke to me.

George and I returned to our hotel soon after the qualifications but I didn't know that it wasn't going to be a quiet afternoon. As soon as we got in our room, George started to yell. "How dare you speak to me like that!!"  he said looking at me. "What do you mean? How did I speak to you?" I asked calmly as I didn't want to push him. "Don't pretend that you don't understand" . " George I am not pretending, what did I tell you?" "Who are you to tell me what I can or I can't do in front of  someone? Tell me, who gave you that right, to speak whenever you desire?" "George don't be ridiculous. It is my life and I can speak however and to anyone I want. What's gotten into you?"

"Don't shout at me. You are nothing. From the moment you marry me, you have no life. You are mine and as long as I am your husband, you are not allowed to do anything without my permission. Am I clear?" "I won't continue talking to you. What are you talking about is crazy. So stay here, relax while I take a walk. We are done here." "If you leave now don't come back until tomorrow. I won't open to you so you should take your clothes with you. However I expect you to be here at 9 o'clock in order to leave for the Grand Prix. Goodbye." "Ok George bye". I said and quickly packed my things. I didn't know where to go but I didn't want to see him either. So I left and I didn't look back. 

I got out of the hotel and started walking down the streets, carrying my suitcase. Finally I stopped a couple metres away from the hotel and sat on a bench. I couldn't stop my tears any longer. What was I going to do? Where would I go in the middle of the night? I couldn't believe that he told me to leave. I was nothing to him. I was only his little toy that he just threw away whenever he wanted. Well I surely didn't want that. I wanted to feel loved and I wanted someone to care about me and look after me. Then I remembered Charles and how he made me feel. He was so perfect, I couldn't let him go, but I knew that in three weeks I would have to for his safety.

I wanted to call him but I hesitated. I didn't know if he wanted to see me right now. However because I wasn't able to stop crying I finally called him. "Anna?" he answered after a minute. Not being able to hold my tears I answered, "Charles..."  "Where are you?" "Outside the Grand..Hotel." "Stay there, I am coming."  I ended the call. On any other occasion I wouldn't prefer him here with me but right now I needed him. I couldn't be alone. I needed him to help me. After five minutes I saw his car pulling over and Charles coming at me.

"Anna what happened? Are you ok?"  he asked but I didn't answer. I just kept crying. It was too difficult to stop. "Alright, get in the car. I am with you now."  We got in the car and he drove to his hotel.  When we arrived at his room, he turned at me and gently grabbed my chin, forcing me to look at him but I couldn't do it. "Anna, please look at me." I slowly looked at his perfect green eyes which were now filled with worry. "I need you to calm down and tell me what happened, so I can help you, ok?" I nodded and I started taking slow breaths. He pulled me into a hug which helped me relax. Five minutes later, I was finally calm and I had stopped crying. Feeling his touch against mine, really made secure. 

"Now can you tell me what happened?"  "We returned to our room and he started yelling at me for speaking inappropriate to him. I then told him that I couldn't keep doing that and that I was going to go for a walk but he told me to leave for the night and to come back tomorrow morning. I didn't know what to do so I called you." "I can't believe him. Did he hit you?" "No thankfully. I am fine now, thank you Charles. I should probably find somewhere to spend the night." "You are staying with me Anna. I won't leave you alone after that." "Thank you Charles. You can not imagine how much it means to me" "I care about you Anna and I would always be there for you. Remember that" 

"Charles I also wanted to apologize for today. I know that you didn't like finishing 7th. It was my fault, please forgive me." "Anna it wasn't your fault. I was distracted but not because of you. The only thing you did was to push me when I thought of giving up, so thank you." "What are we going to do Charles with this whole situation?" "I don't know Anna, but for now we are going to lie on the bed and try to sleep because you seem tired." "The truth is that I am." "Come on then" he said and we both lied on the bed.

He held me tightly in his arms, not wanting to let go. I felt his breath against my ear and then his lips kissed the top of my head. "Goodnight Anna" "Goodnight Charles" . I loved the way he held me and made me feel. I wish we could stay like that forever. I stopped thinking about what would happen with George and focused on memorising this moment as I wouldn't have many of them. At that moment I was happy and hopeful. Maybe something would happen and we would end up together in the end. All I needed was a little bit of faith and Charles. If I had those I could do anything I wanted. With this thought I let sleep take me to a magic world with only Charles and me.

"For a moment she believed she could have this life."