That night in Monaco

Chapter 24

Charles Leclerc

"He had to let go."

I woke up the next day feeling anxious. I couldn't describe it, it was a bad feeling, like something awful was going to happen. I tried not to let that affect me and started getting ready. The time was 9 and I had decided to go to the hospital in half an hour.

I did my morning fast and began getting dressed. I wore a pair of black jeans and a red T-shirt. I quickly put on my shoes and left. I didn't eat breakfast but that didn't bother me. I arrived at the hospital 15 minutes later.

The moment I stepped into Anna's room I saw the doctor. I asked how she was but he only replied they would see how she was going until the afternoon. I tried not to think about anything bad so I sat at my usual chair and stared at Anna wishing she would wake up. Later I spoke to her a little and then the doctor came again to check her. He advised me to go eat something and I agreed.

I ended up eating toast and drinking a cup of coffee to keep me awake as I hadn't slept well at night. After I finished my food I got back to her room and sat on the couch this time. I kept my gaze on her all the time until I fell asleep. When I woke up again the time was 6. For how long have I been sleeping, I thought.

The doctor came again but this time he didn't have that calm face he usually had. Sadness was painted all over it that I really started to worry. "What's wrong?" I asked. "I am so sorry Mr. Leclerc but there is nothing we can do anymore. If she had had any chance to survive she would have woken up by now." "What are you saying?" I asked my voice breaking. "Charles, it's over. You need to say goodbye." "No, no this can't be happening." "I am so sorry again Charles. We tried we really did." "I can't do this. No please no try harder." "You need to do this. I will give you some time to say goodbye to her."

The doctor left and I remained in my position without moving. With tears flowing down my cheeks I couldn't believe that the love of my life wasn't going to wake up. It was over. I had to say goodbye. I had to let her go.

I went and sat by her side holding her hand. It was starting to get cold but that didn't stop me from saying the words I wanted. With tears in my eyes I said,

"My dearest Anna, I love you so so much. You are my life and I can't imagine living without you but I guess now I have to learn how to do it alone. Please don't go, don't leave me. I won't be able to recover from your loss. However now that you will go, I hope you are happy and peaceful. You don't deserve any of this but I hope you rest now. For one last time, I love Anna, Anna Papadopoulou always and forever. I don't want to let you go."

I got up and turned to leave slowly letting her hand. However as I had turned my back at her I felt her cold hand grab mine pulling me to her so I didn't leave. And when I thought that my imagination did everything she said "Then don't." I turned to her and I couldn't believe my eyes. She was awake smiling at me. I burst down in tears not believing what I had just witnessed.

"Charles, don't cry, please." She said as I sat down. "How? The doctor said you wouldn't wake up" "You know until this morning I didn't want to wake up. I didn't want to spend the rest of my life without you but today I heard you talking to me and I knew that I couldn't leave you." "Oh Anna you scared me so much." "What happened Charles?" "I don't know much but the impact of the crash was huge. George didn't make it and you were in a pretty critical condition. The doctor believed that you couldn't make it." "Is it bad that I feel a little happy now he is gone?" "No not at all, Anna."

"So, how was the Grand Prix?" "You just woke up from a coma and you are asking about me?" "Yes I want to know and I also want you to tell me if you are ok." "Fine, the Grand Prix was fine. I finished fourth and as for how I feel I can't lie to you. These three days I felt awful. Just thinking about losing you made me sick. I couldn't sleep and when I did I had nightmares. I wanted to be here with you all the time." "Oh Charles now I am here and we can start over without anyone stopping us this time" "You know the next Grand Prix won't take place for three weeks so my holidays have already begun. What would you say if you came with me?" "I would love it. As soon as I get out of this terrible hospital we will go"

By the time we finished our conversation the doctor came in. The moment he saw Anna awake he looked like he had seen a ghost. He did a check-up on her and informed us that she was fine and that in two days she could leave the hospital. We were so happy with the news. The hours passed and we talked about anything. It was 9 p.m. when I decided to return to the hotel and let her rest. I said my goodbyes to her and left.

Soon after I arrived at the hotel, tooke a quick shower and got ready for bed. Today was such a tiring day but in the end it was worth it. I layed on the bed and closed my eyes thinking that Anna was safe and alive. Of course I would prefer it if she slept in my arms but I will have to wait two days. Sleep came to me fast and peacefully.

"He couldn't believe that his moon returned to him."