That night in Monaco

Chapter 21

"She didn't know that life had another plan for her."

Three months later

Three months have passed since the wedding. I haven't spoken or seen him since then. I didn't want to. The first month was too difficult but I managed. My heart was as cold as ice. I wasn't happy or sad, I was just empty. I found it easier that way. I didn't allow myself to remember or think anything about him, not even his name.

I didn't speak a lot with George which was pleasant. I didn't do anything except going to work and coming back home. Feeling nothing made my everyday life look like a routine. I was getting used to it and I stopped thinking about another life with him as I finally realised that that dream would never come true.

I didn't go to any other Grand Prix even though I had tickets. I couldn't bring myself to see him, let alone speak with him. I thought that he would want the same thing. It was the best choice for both of us.

Today was Friday and I had just returned home from work. However the moment I stepped into the bedroom, I saw George with a suitcase packed with clothes. "Oh Anna, you came home, excellent, pack your things." he said. "Why, are we going somewhere?" I asked, afraid of the answer. "Yes, we are going to Great Britain to see the Grand Prix. We haven't seen the previous ones so I thought it would be a great idea and we have tickets as well."

I couldn't do it and I didn't want to either. However I said "Oh yeah that would be fantastic. Give me twenty minutes to pack my things." I knew I had to do this. Maybe I wouldn't see him alone or he had maybe found a girlfriend as much as I hated this thought. "Great. I will see you in the living room." George said and left. I slowly packed my bags and went to find him.

We got in the car and headed to the airport. After an hour our flight started and I had two hours to think what was going to happen. Although I didn't want to talk to him, I decided to text him after we landed to inform him that I would be there. In the middle of the flight I slept for half an hour and when I woke up we had landed.

We got our luggage and then got to our car. We went to the hotel immediately as we were tired from the flight. I was begging to feel anxious and I just couldn't stop thinking about him. When we arrived in our room, I got ready for sleep despite the fact that it was only 9a.m. However before I fell asleep, I texted him saying, "Hi Charles. I hope you are ok. I know we haven't spoken since my wedding but I wanted to inform you that I would be at the Grand Prix tomorrow. Goodnight."

After about 5 minutes, he replied saying, "Hello Anna. I am fine, how are you holding up? I am looking forward to seeing you tomorrow. Goodnight". For a moment I thought he wouldn't answer me but he did. I couldn't understand why he didn't hate me. I ruined everything and the worst thing was that I wasn't strong enough to stop that wedding. I wish everything had turned out differently.

George came to bed soon after and I fell asleep in his arms. The feeling was strange and cold. I didn't feel protected and calm in his arms, not at least as I felt in Charles'. I tried to think that besides me was Charles and not George in order to fall asleep which helped a lot.

At 10:00 we woke up and went for breakfast. I ate two slices of bread with butter and honey and George ate an omelette. We drank our coffee and then went to get ready to go to the circuit. Fortunately it wasn't far from our hotel but we still needed to drive there. I wore a pair of black trousers and a white T-shirt. It was the beginning of September but it was too hot outside. Last but not least, I wore my sneakers and grabbed my bag.

When we finished getting ready we got to our car and started driving. It was a quiet drive but there was a lot of traffic. I didn't care and I continued staring out of my window. Everything was perfect until a huge car came towards us. Everything happened so fast. George in order to avoid colliding with that car he turned left but crashed into a tree. The impact was so huge that I couldn't comprehend what had just happened. My only thought was "I hope he finds happiness" before everything turned black and I lost consciousness.

"She had always wanted what was best for him, even then."