Law And Order SVU Reader Imagines

No Matter the Cost (Fin X OC Character)

Request: *Will you a tutuola and OC where OC is a victim of a rape and Tutuola is a long time friend of oc and he helps them figure out who did this to them*

Okay this was hard to write because I've never written anything for Fin before so if it doesn't vibe well to his character I apologize in advance.

Warnings: mentions of rape, anxiety, depression, angst, very slight mention of suicide and self harm

*If you are not comfortable with those warnings DO NOT READ!*
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Ella couldn't breathe.

She couldn't move.

It was like if she had a switch and everything had been turned off.

She wished she could just sleep and never wake up.

Ella wished more than anything that she would have never gone out to get food at 11pm.

It was stupid. Why would she go out so late on a weekend no less when she knew how dangerous the area was at night.

All for some dumb tacos.

Ella tried to focus on anything else that wasn't the man touching her.

It was disgusting. Horrible and vile.

I wish it would end.

Please be over soon.

As the dark hooded man finished, she felt herself slipping away.

It'll be over soon.
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When Ella woke she saw the sun pouring into the blinds of her apartment and could hear the traffic outside.

Just another day in New York.

But nothing is normal anymore.

Will it ever be?

As she got up she saw herself covered in some blood and semen.

Disgusting

Her head was pounding and she felt sore from the bottom half of her body.

He had left her naked on the bed. He hadn't even covered her up.

Animal

She stood up and felt dizzy and grabbed ahold of the wall as she walked towards her mirror.

She was horrified with what she saw.

So many bruises.

Bitemarks.

Scratches.

They're everywhere.

All of a sudden she felt her chest tighten and she couldn't breathe. Her vision started to blur as she felt herself start to hyperventilate. She felt herself slide down the wall and she sobbed.

How could I be so dumb?

She felt her body twitch and shake as she started screaming between her sobs.

It felt like an eternity before she was able to calm down. She glanced up and saw a picture on her dresser.

It was a picture of her and her best friend. They were laughing at the camera.

Why can't everything go back to that?

Ella knew what she had to do but she dreaded it. She felt so drained. What was the point if nothing could ever take that disgusting feeling away from her?