The rise of N-Dubz

Chapter 12.

The next day, Tulisa and Fazer are laying in bed. He wakes up and looks down at Tulisa, who was fast asleep on his chest. Her eyes looked bright red and it was obvious she'd cried herself to sleep. He stroked her hair and leaned forward a bit so he could kiss the top of her head. He decided to talk to her once she'd woken up. He knew there was something bothering her and he had to find out what that something was. An hour or so later, after Fazer had been laying in bed trying to work out what  on earth could be wrong with her, Tulisa woke up. She rubbed her eyes a bit, which made them sting even more, then she looked up at Fazer. It was only when Tulisa was awake, that Fazer saw the true extent of the state she was in.

Fazer: T, what's the matter babe?

Tulisa: Nothing.

Fazer: It's not nothing, you've cried yourself to sleep. Why didn't you wake me?

Tulisa: What would have been the point? You can't do anything to help anyway.

Fazer: How do you know unless you tell me?

Tulisa: Like I said, you can't do anything so just forget about it. I'm gonna get up, showered, dressed and I'm off to Dappy's for a bit before we go to the studio. You can do whatever you like, I don't really care.

Fazer: Is this how it's gonna be from now on?

Tulisa: What the hell are you talking about?

Fazer: We have sex and then you push me away the next morning like you don't wanna know?

Tulisa: You haven't got a clue what you're going on about so just shut it yeah?

Fazer: Why are you blocking me out T? I wanna help you!

Tulisa: *starts screaming* WELL NOTHING YOU CAN SAY OR DO WILL MAKE THIS ANY EASIER SO JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP! LET ME GET SHOWERED AND DRESSED AND I'LL GET OUT OF YOUR FACE YEAH?!

Fazer: I just wanna help.

Tulisa: WELL I DON'T WANT YOUR FUCKING HELP SO WHY DON'T YOU JUST FUCK OFF?

Fazer: Fine.

Tulisa: Can I get ready and go out now?

Fazer: Fine whatever, just don't expect me to be here tonight. I've had enough of this. I try and help you with whatever's wrong and all I get is a load of abuse. I try and be there for you and you don't wanna know. Do you think I wanna be with someone who I'm afraid to even talk to because I don't know if I'm just gonna get shouted at? There's only so much I can take. You clearly need help with whatever's wrong with you and you don't want that help from me so why should I even bother?

Tulisa: So you're walking out on me like everyone else just because I won't talk to you? You wonder why I never tell anyone anything? It's because I have to know I can trust people and if people keep walking out on me just because of my mood swings, I'm not gonna open up to anyone am I? If you wanna go fine, I'm not stopping you but this just proves to me, you were never worthy of my love in the first place.

Fazer: Look, the way I see it, you've known me for 10 years, we've been best mates for 9 of those years and you can't even talk to me by now? What do you think I'm gonna do?

Tulisa: Look, I'm sorry alright. Like I said, if you wanna go, that's fine but I'd rather you didn't. I need to get showered and dressed anyway.