They all tell me to do the best I can now so that I can do it all later. What they don't see is that the best I can do is to finish high school. It's the best I can do to sit through the classes I dread with too much acid in my stomach without calling home. It's the best I can do to take half a pill at a time because I haven't yet mastered a whole one without choking, but I know that if I don't I'll never make it through the day okay. It's the best I can do to finish the paragraph when I'm called to read out loud, because there's tears stinging my eyes and my throat is closing and I don't even know why. It's the best I can do to laugh about my indirection instead of breaking down crying at the thought of my future. I'm doing the best I can, and I'm still optimistic, but The Best I Can isn't getting me any farther.
