Don't you dare tell yourself you are hard to love. Don't you ever accept it. Loving you is never hard.
I understand it, though, that sometimes it's difficult to love in a world that rejects it so much. Our music, our celebrities, our media, even our own hearts keep telling us, "love is hard," and it's easy to believe when our world's perception of love is built on lies. The world will tell you love is first kisses, and obsession; that love is crying at 2am because he told you he loved you, but it's clear now that he didn't. They'll tell you love is putting down all your walls and giving up parts of yourself that are better kept protected. And they're right that love is hard, when every time you love you give yourself away. They're right that love is hard when you believe love can't stand through the storm. Love is impossible when you lower it to the animal, the physical, the cynical.
But love, real love, is faithful, true, and selfless. Real love is forgiving, and guiding, and completely unconditional. Real love doesn't give up on you or your faults.
God loves you so much, but if you won't believe in him, then I will love you for him. I will love your short temper, (it matches my own,) and I will love your need to always be right, (because I'm always right as well.) I will love your indecision, (I couldn't decide if I wanted ice in my drink,) and your sadness, (sometimes I don't even know why I'm crying,) and your anxiety, (even now I'm sick to my stomach over things that haven't happened yet.) I will love you, easy or not, because you are not hard to love.
You are never hard to love.
Some people just can't grasp loving.
