Here's My Heart

Chapter XIX

Jeremy's P.O.V.

     Laura was a mess. Ezra came running to me because Laura was asking for me. So now I was sitting on the couch, hugging Laura. "What if he doesn't love me?" Laura asked me. "Laura. When Ezra came to find me and she told me what was going on, Logan immediately started panicking. He was so fucking worried. He told me himself that he was terrified that you would reject him when he proposed. He loves you so much that I can't put it into words." I told her. She laughed, wiping away her tears. "I guess you're right. Can you help me get this dress on?" She asked me. I nodded. She got it on and I laced up the back. It was a white dress with a sweetheart neckline. It didn't have any embellishments except for the belt and the skirt was very flowy. I helped put her hair piece in and she corrected her makeup. "I can't do it without these." She said, grabbing her converse. "Are those the ones you wore when you met him?" I asked her. She nodded and I smiled. "Well I'm going to go get Evan ready." I told her. Evander James Nash was born 4 months before their wedding. They wanted to use Jamie's name but they changed it to James. Logan legally changed his last name and mine to Nash. He did that before he legally adopted Avian, which happened two months ago. I walked it the room and everyone was hurrying to get ready. Evan was being passed around and he was crying. I picked him up and he instantly stopped."Jesus christ you guys! Are you fucking torturing him in here?" I said, grabbing his suit from the clothing rack. I put him in it and put his clip on tie on. He giggled and I smiled at him. Once I was finished I started feeding him. Laura decided to breastfeed and she made a bunch of bottles for him for today. He finished rather quickly today which I was thankful for. I picked him up and peeked into Laura's room. "Are you ready?" I asked her. "Yes." She told me with a smile. David and Kelly were the first ones to go out. They walked down, smiling at the crowd. Then it was Avian's turn. He walked down the aisle happily. Now it was my turn. I took a deep breath and stepped out, walking down the aisle with Evan in my arms. He giggled and I started laughing. I got to the end of the isle and stood right beside Logan. "Is she okay?" He whispered to me. "Yeah. She was just a bit worried about some things but I talked to her." I whispered back. He nodded. Ezra and Alice walked out together holding hands. Ezra was smiling happily and Alice was smiling too. They took their place on the opposite side of us. Laura walked out and I heard Logan gasp. I looked at him and saw that he had tears in his eyes. He was clearly in love with her. Her father walked down the aisle with her and she looked at Logan and smiled. Her dad gave Laura's hand to Logan and took his seat. The Officiant, who happened to be a friend of David's, started to speak. "The couple has decided to do their own vows." He said, gesturing to laura to say hers. "Logan. You showed me what it was like to love. I used to hate more people than I loved. I was so lonely for so long." She said. She had tears streaming down her face. She took a deep breath and continued. "And then I moved to a new town. I remember some asshole bumping into me and I honestly wanted to punch him. That asshole was you. But then you offered to walk me home and I told you things that I hadn't told anyone. I got to know you and I couldn't be more happy with the outcome. I love you so much and I have for so long. We've been together for almost two years and I know that we're going to stay together for the rest of our lives." She finished. The Officiant gestured to Logan. "Laura. My Calliope. I have loved you since I first met you. You showed me that it was okay to show emotions. You showed me that I didn't have to throw up my tough guy act. I have problems. I've been told that my whole life. People get nervous at that fact. You accepted that and you accepted me. I love how brave and caring you are. This little boy came knocking on our door and you took him in with open arms. You stood up to his father and made his father your bitch." Everyone laughed at that. "I could never stop loving you and I never want to be without you. You make me happy. I love you so much that I can't even put it into words. Love is shown in everything that you do. And I love everything you do. " He said. "Logan Nash. Do you take Laura Calliope Pierson to be your lawfully wedded wife, to have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, until death do you part?" The Officiant asked him.  "I do." He said. Laura smiled. He looked at me and I handed him the ring. He slid it on her finger. " do you Laura Calliope Pierson, take Logan Nash to be your lawfully wedded husband, to have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, until death do you part.?" The Officiant asked Laura. She smiled "I do!" She said excitedly. She reached behind her and grabbed the ring that Alice was holding. She put it on Logan's finger. "Are there any objections?" The Officiant asked. Laura looked over Logan's shoulder and glared at all of the best men. I smiled and bit my tongue. If anyone was going to object, it would be David or I.  "I now pronounce you husband and wife. You may now kiss the bride!" The Officiant yelled. Logan grabbed the back of Laura's neck and pulled her into a kiss. They pulled apart after about thirty seconds and everyone cheered. "I'm on baby duty aren't I?" I asked. Logan and Laura laughed and nodded. I sighed. "Let's get you a new diaper!" I said to Evan. He giggled. I walked into the house and a ton of people were in there. "- really just don't look good together. She's too good for him." I heard someone say. I looked over and saw that it was one of Laura's aunts. "Ma'am can I talk to you outside for a moment? It's about your car." I said. She nodded and walked outside with me. "Lsiten bitch. You want to talk shit about my brother and his wife? Talk about it in the privacy of your own home! Coming to someone's wedding and talking shit about them is a bitch move. I'm also here to remove people if I have to. So I'm removing you. Get in your car and leave." I told her. She looked shocked. She realized I wasn't kidding and quickly ran to her car and left. I walked back inside and grabbed the diaper bag. "If anyone else wants to talk shit about my brother and my sister-in-law, you can leave now!" I yelled as I walked up the stairs. I brought Evan to an empty room and layed him down on the small table that was in there. I took his pants off and his diaper. He had only peed so I cleaned him up and put a new diaper on him and put his pants back on. I grabbed the bag and put it over my shoulder. I picked him up and walked back downstairs. The room had cleared out a bit. I sat on one of the couches and started applying sunscreen to Evan's face and neck. After I was done, we went outside and over to the tent that was set up. I took my seat next to Logan. "What was all of that yelling about?" Nash whispered to me. "Laura's aunt was being a bitch about you guys getting married." I whispered back. He nodded in understanding but I could tell that people's views of him hurt him a little. I stood up and went over to Ezra. "Do you have your bathing suit on under that dress?" I asked her. "Yeah why?" She answered. "I'm going to bring Evan into the pool and it would make me feel better if someone was there with me." I told her. She nodded and started taking off her dress. I took my suit off and set them on a chair. I had my swimming trunks on underneath my suit the whole time. We walked into the pool house and I took Evan's suit and diaper off. I put him in one of his swimming diapers and he giggled the whole time. Ezra was already in by the time I was finished. I gently handed Evan to her and she took him carefully. I slowly got in and I stood next to Ezra. "I should be alarmed at the fact that my girlfriend is so close to a boy." Alice said as she walked in, scaring Ezra. Ezra's hand slipped and she lost her grip on Evan. He didn't even touch the water before I caught him. "Trust me Alice, you don't have to worry about me hitting on Ezra. I don't like girls." I told her as I cradled Evan in my arms. I dipped his feet into the water and he giggled. I realized what I said and started to panic. "What do you mean? Do you not have an attraction to girls?" She asked me curiously. "I-I'm gay." I told her. She looked shocked. "Does anyone else know other than us?" She asked. "Yeah. Now we know." Kelly said. He walked in with David walking in behind him. "Jesus fuck." I said. "We're obviously not going to judge you. What do you think we're going to say? 'Oh my god! You're a fag?!'" He asked with a laugh. We all laughed. "So do you like someone?" Kelly asked. "Well there's this kid named Alex-" before I could finish my sentence they all had a look of horror on their faces. "Is his last name Myles?" Alice asked me. "What? No. His last name is prantis. Why are you all nervous right now?" I asked them. They all exchanged a look and Ezra nodded at Alice. "Alex Myles is my brother. He, uh, he raped Ezra. And Laura." She whispered out Laura's name. "Jesus christ. Can you show me a picture of him?" I asked Alice. She nodded and pulled out her phone. After minute, she turned her phone so I could see it. "Holy shit! I've seen him before! He comes to the café a lot with Trey." I said. "So that's why you always go out back when he shows up?" I asked Ezra. She nodded. "Well can you guys keep my sexuality a secret for a while?" I asked them. They all nodded. Ezra and I got out and dried off. We got dressed again and walked out to see that the Dj was setting his equipment up. After about ten minutes, it was all set up. He sent a look to Logan and He leaned over and told Laura that it was all ready. The song Here's My Heart by SayWeCanFly started playing and they stood up. They walked to the middle and started dancing. They deserved each other and I couldn't be more happy for them. They deserved happiness and they finally got it. I hope that someday I find that happiness. Evan started crying, interrupting my thoughts. "I'm going to go in and get him a bottle." Ezra told me. I started gently cradling him in my arms and he quieted down a bit. Now he was producing little whimpers. I turned him around so that his legs were resting against my arms and his back was leaning against my chest. "That's your mommy and daddy isn't it?" I asked him. He giggled. "I remember when you were born. Your daddy was a nervous wreck. He was so worried that something was going to go wrong. I had to tell him to man up and go in to see you. And when he did, he started crying. He was so happy that you were born. That he was going to be a dad. They had wanted to name you Evangeline Jamie Nash if you were a girl. But luckily for us, you are Evander James Nash. Your aunt would've loved you." I told him, my voice cracking at the end. Tears welled up in my eyes at the memories of Jamie. Laura noticed the tears and waved me over. I walked over to her and looked at her curiously. She pulled away from Logan and took Evan from me, cradling him in her arms. Avian ran over and hugged Laura's legs. I moved over to her next and hugged her. Logan walked up behind us and hugged us all in a tight embrace. As all of them hugged me, I realized that I wanted my own love. Just like Logan and Laura's. But in a way, I already had that love. They had made me feel more happy and loved than I had ever been. I loved them and they loved me.

A/N
So it has officially been a year that I've been writing this book! I think it's finally time it ended. I had never intended on this book being a long one. I only have one in mind that I think with be longer than 25 chapters. I personally love Laura and Logan together and this story will always be the first one I wrote. I hold this book in my heart and I am very happy with it. This book started with a dream I had about a year and a half ago about Logan and Laura. It was essentially the same thing as the book but I had to twist some things so that they would make more sense. I didn't know if that dream would ever make it to wattpad but I eventually found it in me to write it all down. I saw a lot of myself in Laura and her actions. I look nothing like how I described her but I still felt a connection to her. That being said, thank you for reading. I appreciate every read and every vote. If anyone needs to message me, feel free to.