Here's My Heart

chapter XVII

Laura P.O.V

Before we got home we stopped to pick up Jeremy and Avian. Nash was in a bad mood and there was nothing I could do about it. Right now Nash was cooking dinner. "Hey Jeremy? Do you want to go for a walk with me? I need to go pick a few things up." I asked him. He gave me a weird look but nodded anyway. I grabbed my house keys, phone, and wallet and we left the apartment. "What did you need to talk about?" He asked me. "What makes you think I needed to talk?" I asked him curiously. "You aren't usually social with me unless you have to." He told me. "Well you're right. Logan and I went to the bookstore and we ran into someone." I told him. "There was this little girl that asked her mother for a book but her mother said no, so Nash bought it for her. He said that the little girl reminded him of his sister. The mother thanked him and then she asked him what his sister's name was. When he answered she told him that she was his dad's lawyer. For the murder of Jamie." I whispered the last part if the Sentence out. Jeremy stopped walking and looked at me with pain clear in his eyes. "That makes sense as to why he was in a bad mood. You would've loved her. She was sweet. She loved hanging out with Nash but I wasn't as close to her. Right after she died I couldn't stop feeling guilty about not hanging out with her as much." He confessed. "It wasn't your fault. My father used to blame me for my mother's death and I felt guilty for it too. So I understand a bit." I told him honestly. "Do you know what makes Nash feel better though?" I asked him. "He loves watching movies. Specifically Mulan because that was her favorite movie. And he likes eating sour patch kids because that was their thing." He told me. "He loves you Laura. I've never seen him attached to anyone other than Jamie. He loves you and Avian." He didn't sound jealous as he told me this but there was definitely some emotion in his eyes that I couldn't quite figure out. "Well let's head to walmart and get those things." I said nervously.
After another 15 minutes we were at walmart. We immediately went to the movie section and picked out a few, Jeremy helping me pick some. We went to the snack section and got a big bag of sour patch kids. I noticed Jeremy eying a few things so after he turned out of the isles I would grab them. I grabbed some drinks and a few more books for Avian since I didn't get the chance to grab any while we were at the bookstore. We went to checkout and payed for all of the stuff. We carried the groceries back to the apartment. I showed Avian his new books. "These are so cool!" He said excitedly. I handed the bag of stuff that Jeremy had been looking at to him. He took it and looked in, looking up at me, clearly shocked. "Thank you." He said happily. "Dinner is ready by the way." Nash told us. We all sat down and started eating. After we were finished I gave Avian a shower and me and Nash got ready to take ours. Jeremy was going to read a book to Avian and put him to bed while we took our shower. We got in and I pulled Logan into a hug. "I'm sorry about what happened today." I told him. He pulled back enough to kiss me gently. I started washing my hair as Logan washed his. We took turns rinsing off and washed our bodies. We turned the water off and got out, drying ourselves off first. Logan and I walked into our bedroom and got dressed. He went to lay down but I pulled him over to me before he could. I tugged him out into the living room, grabbing the bags of stuff on the way. I pushed him onto the couch and put the movie into the DVD player without letting him see what it was. I threw a bag of sour patch kids at him and grabbed my bag of gummy bears. I sat down on the couch, grabbing the remote. I pressed play and the movie started. Jeremy joined us a few minutes later and sat in the chair. Logan looked at me when the movie started. When I looked up at him, he had tears in his eyes. The sight broke my heart. I curled up against him, resting my head on his shoulder. I looked over at Jeremy after I heard a soft sob from him. His cheeks were wet and red. The sight of these two men had me shedding a few tears of my own. "Can I see a picture of her?" I asked quietly, my voice cracking. Nash grabbed his phone and pulled up a few pictures of her. She looked absolutely gorgeous. She had bright blue eyes and long brown hair. Her smiled had me in tears. She seemed so bubbly and optimistic. I probably would've gotten along with her if I had known her. We watched the rest of the movie in silence except for the few sobs that the boys would let out. When the movie ended, Logan and I went into our bedroom. Logan immediately laid down in our bed, curling up into a ball. With some effort, I pushed him over enough so I could get into the bed with him. After was in the bed, I layed down next to him, facing his back. I wrapped my arm around him, spooning him. He turned so that he was facing me. His cheeks were red and puffy and there were tears running down his face. I pulled his head to my chest and started silently letting tears stream down my face. He started sobbing violently. "She didn't deserve this! He deserves to get killed!" He sobbed out. I heard a small whimper outside our door. I stood up and opened the door. Jeremy had tears rushing down his face as he sat there, tucked into a ball. I grabbed his arm, pulling him up. I brought him over to our bed. I laid down next to Logan and pulled Jeremy down so that he was laying on my other side. I pulled them both to me and hugged them to my chest. They kept crying, mourning for the sister that they lost at the hand of their own father. She was full of life and their father stole that. These boys deserved so much better than what they had. I wanted nothing more than to kill their father myself. Jeremy sat up after calming himself enough. "I need a fucking cigarette." He said, all of the emotions evident in his voice. "I think we all need one." I told him. Logan silently got up and followed us out of the house. On our way out we bumped into Avian's father. "Oh, Laura, I have your money for you right here." He said, looking slightly scared of me. He pulled out $40 and handed it to me. I took it and nodded at him in acknowledgment. We walked to the store quickly and bought a few packs of cigarettes. We went back to the building and stood of it. We all pulled our packs out and started smoking cigarettes. I was almost done with my fourth one when Nash started to head back inside. I looked at Jeremy and he smiled. I took that a cue to continue and we did. We smoked about 6 cigarettes from our packs before deciding that we were finished. We went inside and I immediately checked on Avian. He was sound asleep still so I told Jeremy to be quiet. I walked into my room and Logan was asleep too. He must've been drained after crying and then walking to the store. I laid down next to him and put my arm around his waist, spooning him again. I went to sleep, suddenly exhausted, which makes sense. Today was very eventful.

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A/N
I'm probably going to finish this book up soon! I had different plans with this chapter but my mind did it's own thing and I like this chapter better. In case there's any confusion, Laura bought all of that stuff to make Nash feel better. And in a way it did. It helped him let out some of the emotions that he kept buried. From personal experience though, they're going to be tired as hell the day after this.