Here's My Heart

chapter IV

Laura POV
     "Are you going to Kelly and David's party!?" Alice asked me as we walked out of the school. She had this look in her eyes that I  couldn't quite read. It seemed as though she was angry at someone but she hadn't had that look until I sat down next to her in class. Alice was very energetic and had a twin named Alex but she was hiding something. Maybe she was mad at me? Had I said or done something to upset her?
     "Laura!" She yelled in my ear. I winced and looked at her, confused. "Are you going?" She asked a bit more quietly. "I guess?" I said but it sounded like a question. "Listen, Alice, I have to go meet my dad at the police station but I'll talk to you later okay?" I said, rushing out of the building. I tried to call my dad to let him know I was on my way but he didn't answer.
     As I started walking I popped my headphones in and the song 'Bully' by Shinedown was playing. 'All you'll ever be is a fading memory of a bully' it sang in my ears. 'He looked down at me, laughing. My nose was bleeding and I'm certain one or more of my cuts reopened. People passed by but didn't stop unless they were taking pictures as he kept kicking me. I cried out as he kicked me in my thigh, hitting at least 15 cuts.' As the memory faded from my mind tears filled my eyes. I crossed the street and continued walking as the tears streamed down my face, bringing eyeliner and mascara with it. I stopped and grabbed my makeup bag and pulled out a little mirror and cleaned up my makeup.
     My thoughts went to Nash as I continued walking. Why was he even talking to me? Why was he trying to hide himself from me? I don't know a lot about him but I want to know learn more.
     When I arrived at the police station there was a car that I didn't recognize parked there. I walked into the station and I was not prepared for what I saw. Nash was sitting at a officer's desk glaring daggers at a man in a posh suit. The man looked like he didn't want to be there. I continued walking, trying not to be noticed, but Nash looked away from the man and his eyes landed on me. I stopped like a deer caught in the headlights. I looked at my father, who looked like he didn't want to be here at all and I didn't blame him. I couldn't tell if Nash was angry or scared but something in the back of my mind told me that I would most likely find out.

Nash POV
     When I saw her my mind started racing. Why was she here? Was she going to tell someone? Was she here because she got in trouble?
     "Nash!" The man that I unfortunately call my "father" yelled, clearly annoyed. "What!?" I snapped back, meeting his eyes with anger. "Are you going to come home?" He asked, even though his eyes said that he didn't want me anywhere near his house. "I want to go to my damn house!" I snapped, losing all of my patience with this bullshit.
     "Nash! Don't speak like that!" He said like he had the right to tell me what to do. "You lost the right to tell me what you do the minute you threw me the fuck out! I failed one math test and all of a sudden I'm on the streets begging for someone to either give me food or put a bullet in my damn head," I yelled, pausing to breathe. "Then when I'm finally in a good spot, you decide that you want me back in your damn life. But guess what!? I fucking hate you and I would rather die than go back to that hellhole!" I finished. My dad looked at me in shock and so did the cop on the left, but the cop that I didn't recognize looked at me like he understood me.
     At this point I felt like I needed drugs. I took a deep breath and walked out, ignoring the voices that were telling me to come back but I refused to see my dad, regardless of my worries for my sister. I heard them stop for a second before continuing again. When I turned the corner someone grabbed my wrist, forcing me to turn around.
     When I did, Laura was looking at me with so many emotions that      I wanted to cry. I was seeing anger, pain and a few others but those were the most evident. I immediately noticed that her cheeks were red and blotchy and her eyes were slightly bloodshot and missing their usual eyeliner. Why was she crying? Was it something I said or did?
     "What the fuck happened back there?" She asks angrily. "None of you damn business! Why do you care!? I'm not important and my life isn't some fucking mystery! I'm not a fucking problem I'm a human being! You can't expect me to sit down and tell you everything like you're my fucking therapist!" I practically screamed at her. "I was just trying to understand why you were at a police station telling some posh douchebag to go fuck himself! If I come across as some kind of cold hearted bitch that's going to try to figure you out and fix you then I need to give you a little memo. I fucked up my arms and legs because I had problems that no one wanted to hear about! I don't want to fix shit! I cope with a fucking razor blade god dammit! How does broken fix broken!?" She yelled back as tears started streaming down her face. She seemed shocked by her own words but she stood her ground. "I hated myself and so did my dad! Half of the time I need alcohol so I'm not completely alone and empty! I left my old school because I was bullied for cutting even though I was cutting because I was bullied and the fact that my father practically ignored me didn't help the situation!" "So why the fuck do you want be hanging out with me!? I can't possibly be good for you!" I yelled back. "You talked to me first douchebag!" She screams at me. I walk away, not having anything else to say. Her sobs start to get quieter as I walk away.

A/N
It's me again! I'm sorry for taking so long to update but I do have school and and shit. I'm also sorry for the short chapter but the next one has a lot of stuff going on so it'll probably be longer. What do you think is going to happen to Nash and Laura? What did you think of Nash's father? If you have any questions about the book feel free to ask! Thank you for reading! If anyone wants to create art for this book could you send it to me please? I really love art, especially when it's based off of my work!