Bonded

Chapter Thirty Seven

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India

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Somehow as I was trying to focus on the scrollwork in front of me... The air in this library had filled with tension... Most of it stemming from the way he keeps staring at Kavya... Both of them sparing a moment every now and then to lift their eyes and turn their focus on me mutually...

I had been wondering why I kept feeling chills creep up my body over and over again, and if I had lifted my eyes sooner I would have known why... The oddness that is hanging in the air so heavily somehow involving me without me even noticing...

The strange feeling causes the fire deep within my belly to pop and flare... Color rising in my face so readily that it's a wonder that my cheeks aren't literally aflame... Especially when I lock eyes with both of them for a moment... The way they lean into my gaze almost making me think that the two of them are going to reach for me...

Sadly...

Before either of them has time to act on the strange look that I have found in their eyes...

Jian clears his throat...* His eyebrows raised as he openly stares my suitors both down with a protectiveness that I've never seen before... *His knowledge of what is going on so much deeper than my own...

It raises so many questions for me that I have no intention of asking in front of Kavya and Ronin., If only to avoid looking foolish in front of the pair of them...

Even though the thickness that I do not have a name for is still so present in the air it seems as though my friend and fellow pupil has scolded my Ronin and my Kavya without ever uttering a word... And unfortunately for me...

It means I have no idea of what is going on...

I dont understand the new looks of frustration and guilt that I'm watching blossom on Kavya's and Ronin's faces...

I don't understand the look of triumph that settles upon Jian's face... Or the satisfying way he leans away from the table...

None of it is making sense to me... And I genuinely wish I did not have to wait until later to ask Jian about whatever it is that this was...

For a moment I consider if my pair of suitors would necessarily laugh or find me silly if I were to divulge being perplexed...

But even if they would not laugh or think me a fool... I'm not sure I would even be able to ask the questions I would like because I have no idea how to phrase them... I have no idea on how to say them out loud or even if I should... Because when it comes to this odd, gut dropping tension...

I find myself rather hoping that it never fades...