Wander-ful Thoughts

Before it Started

(Holding on to the love you've been waiting for so long, but the one you love couldn't hold it anymore, 03-10-2015)

Late at night as I lie and close my eyes.

I rest my hands in my chest and heave a sigh.

Then slowly, I look at the left side of the bed,

and realize you're not there, you're just in my head.

My restless heart pounds so hard, so wild

That my chest can't contain, feeling too tight.

Why can't I just pull you out of my mind,

and lay you gently by my side?

Then my vision blurs, tears begin to fall.

The unbearable pain pierces to my soul,

reminding myself that everything has just ended.

I need to accept that it's all done before it has even started