The Closer I Get to You

14

Beyoncé

My mama didn't find out about my OD since I'm 18. One of the nice white nurses agreed to call it a viral infection and my mama laid off a ton. She thinks my detox medications are antibiotics.

I had a big 3 hour long phone call with Robyn after I became coherent again. I'm never doing another pill or joint, or having anymore sips or hits after this. I swear.

I even blocked and deleted the numbers of every plug I know. I even cut Zendaya off since she provided to me a majority of the time. What Robyn told me is 100% right. I can't be a junkie straight out of highschool. I need to be able to keep a job, I need to be mentally stable, and I don't plan on dying very soon.

I have so much going for me and I refuse to ruin my remaining chances.

On that note, I'm planning on going to technical school to learn how to fix cars and weld, and I might get back into some form of business and art later once I have a financial foundation.

I want to do it for myself most of all. I deserve more in life so I can reap and enjoy my successes afterwards. Be it helping my mother out financially and or having something healthy with Nicki.

I walk down the halls with an expressionless face as I get to Mrs. Lilian's classroom.

The woman is at the doorway and stops to look me over before I can go back in.

It's my first day back since I OD'd and every single teacher has done this to me. They don't even give me a hello, just give a look of shame. If I wasn't so dead set on changing, I would've scowered the earth for a smoke. I try to put that behind me so I can see my friends for the first time in almost two weeks.

I continue forward and see Robyn, Kelly, Nicki, and Solana smiling widely at me. Robyn and Nicki lean forward on their desks with cupcake boxes and hold them out to me. It doesn't take long for me to note that Zendaya isn't here, but I don't say a word. I don't think I want wanted to see her anyways.

"Missed you, dumbass." Robyn quips. "Welcome back."

After her, my eyes go directly to Nicki. I allow my eyes to linger on her freely. Her long black hair flows down her back, she's got on some cute jeans and a decently tight top to match.

Just seeing Nicki herself on my first day back feels like a fucking prize in itself.

"Beyoncé and Nicki..."

"Chile they asses in the tree already." Kelly jokes. "Been in it."

Nicki, being next to her playfully whacks her on the back of the head. I look back for a second to blush and look back when I feel it's settled down in my cheeks a bit more.

Kelly exclaims and scratches the area she was just hit at.

"I love you too, Kelz."

I laugh a bit.

"These for you. A mini party." Robyn pats my back. "We love your annoying bi--"

Nicki interupts her, "We love you and we wanna celebrate."

Nicki pokes at the smile on my face that I forget is there for a second.

"Thanks, yall."

"No problems, we just wanna let you know we love you."

I take my seat and Nicki holds a cupcake out for me. Right as I reach, she swipes it away, then puts it back, then swipes away.

I stop and raise my brows at her playfully, "You gon' give it to me or not?"

"Aw, it's their first fight as a couple..." Kelly and Solana giggle.

I glare at them for a second, thinking Nicki is on my side but I can feel her laughing.

Maybe Christian girl has some sugar in the tank.

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these next chapters are gonna be a lil short n sweet, but long chapters will be back soon, y'all I promise.