Trust is a dangerous path.

Chapter 23 : He was wrong

When i arrived home nobody was home and i was reallly grateful for that. I know i should talk to my dad but i just don't want to ruin anything for him.

I am going to talk to him since i kinda pinky promised Lira i would while walking home. Right know i just want to be alone. I just need to relax and not think about it until then.

I went straight to my room and sat at my desk i put on some music.

An hour later i heard the door open and slam shut again. I hear laughter coming from downstairs. It was silent a couple minutes until i hear footsteps coming up the stairs and seconds later a shadow appears in front of my door. I hear a knock and i stiffen just by the thought it might be Lucy.

I slowly go to the door pulling it open. I feel myself releasing a breath when i see my dad's face. "Hey, Kaya." "Hi, dad."

"Honey, will you come down i'm bored already." i heard Lucy scream from downstairs. A smile made his way to my fathers face and he said goodnight. As quick as he came, he was gone.

I sat in my room wondering what i could tell him. How can i say these without sounding like a selfish brat i more thought.

"Kaya foods ready!" My dad yelled at the stairs and i went down.

I could hear her voice from the moment i opened the door. Her voice was really annoying, or maybe i just think that because i don't like her. I walked into the kitchen and met with both of them already sitting at the table.

"Oh Kaya, there you are. I made my own dish i hope you'll like it." She said giving me a fake smile. The thing it was really hard telling if it actually was fake. But something in me said it was and i believed it. "I'm sure it's delicious." I said playing along with her game. And i pulled one of my innocent sweet smiles her way.

We started eating and i have to say it was pretty tasteful i found some mushrooms in her dish. I'm allergic to mushrooms. I don't know if she did it on purpose or not. Again something in me tells me she did but i don't have any proof. She just knows me. How would se know what i'm allergic for?

I pushed the mushrooms to the side and was very careful not to eat any. The phone rang and suddenly we all looked up at each other. My father left his seat walking towards the living room.

I looked at Lucy who had a big smirk on her face. "You don't like mushrooms? They're very tasty." She said. She did know. But how?

"No, i don't. Actually i'm allergic to mushrooms. You didn't know?" I looked her dead in the eye not giving her a glint of anger in my voice. She raised her eyebrows acting shocked. "Really? Oh, i didn't know. I'll know that in the future." She said taking another big bite.

She sure has some acting skills but i don't buy them. At moments like this i wish i was a demon. I wish i had the ability to tell the truth from there lies.

My father came back and gave us both a smile that we both also returned. "Sorry, it was work. What were you two talking about?" He asked. "My allergie." I said. "I found the mushrooms in her dish and she asked me about them."

"Oh, yeah i forgot to tell Lucy." He said looking sorry at me. "It's okay i don't blame you or Lucy." We eated the rest of our food in silence.

I did the dishes and the whole time Lucy was basically glued to my dad. I wanted to talk to him but there isn't a moment he is alone. I finished the dishes and went to my room saying nothing to either of them. I'm sure they didn't even notice i left.

In my room my thoughts were chasing. About my dad, Lucy and mushrooms. I pinky promised Lira i would talk to him but i feel like talkign to him know pushes me even farther away from him then it already is.

I heard a light knock on my door again and i opened it. My dad gave me a warm smile. "Hey you just left, is something wrong? You didn't even say goodnght."

This is my chance. This is the moment he's alone.

"Dad, can i talk to you for a second?" He nodded in responce and i let him into my room and close the door after him. "Look i really don't want to fight or hurt your feelings but i don't feel right about Lucy." I got it out quicker then i expected it to be. I looked at the floor not daring to meet his eyes. "I thought you liked Lucy." I heard my father say with a deep voice. I looked up at him and he definitely wasn't smiling anymore. "I don't. I lied. She doesn't like me either." I told him honestly. "Ofcourse she likes you, she told me herself." He argued but he shook his head not believing my words.

I know he isn't listening clearly to what i had to say. So i had to bring better things to get his attention. "She knew i am allergic dad. She tried to make me sick." "That was an accident." My father defended her looking me dead in the eye. I was so suprised when i saw that he wasn't believingme. I kinda expected it but still it stung.

"You believe her over me?" i asked and not a second latter he nodded. I started feeling tears coming up in my eyes as my mouth fell open. I took a step back from him looking at him with hurt.

"You just can't have it that i found someone that makes me happy again." "What?" "Yeah, i thought you would like the idea of a new mom, but apperently not." He sighted he moved his hand trough his hair frustrated. "A new mom!" I shouted louder then i was supposed to. "She will never be my mom! Nobody can ever replace my mom.!" He looked shocked i was yelling at him but i didn't feel guilty at all.

"Maybe you can dad. Maybe you can replace mom, but i can't." I didn't notice until now tears were rolling down my face. My dad looked angry and to be honest i was slightly scared.

"You always have to be the center of attention!" he yelled back. "You always want it to be aboout you, huh? Is that why you want her gone? So you can have my full attention again!" I was shocked by his outburst and he never yelled at me before. Even though the yelling made me scared and flinch when he used the tone, i couldn't help but answer. "Even though if that was my plan i never had your full attention! You are always away. Gone to work and late home, i never had your full attention why would i need it now!"

He sighted long and deep. "Listen kaya, i'm going to sleep and you're going to do the same. I will not send her away because you are selfish. So we forget this conversation ever happened." He said in a low voice. I froze as he stared down at me and left the room seconds later slamming the door.

I cried into my pillow trying to comfort my self but it didn't help much. He never yelled at me before. He nevr gave me his full attention.

"He will choose you over a woman he just met." Miles' words come back while i feel more tears escaping my eyes. I guess he was wrong.