Confessions Too

Chapter 66

   I was sitting there twirling my thumbs while waiting to get an update on Norris. To my surprise, I was actually scared. Regardless of how I feel, Norris is still my husband. I don't want nothing to happen to him. However, I could use this time to make him sign the papers. If he's in critical condition, this could be my only chance to get him to sign the papers. It don't sound like a bad idea to me. The longer I sat in the lobby waiting, the more thoughts rans through my head. If he dies, I could be a widow. I can finally be free from him and free to move forward. All my secrets can remain a secret. I was getting too comfortable with the thought Norris could die right now. In the past, I would have been a complete wreck right now. I'm sitting here not sheading a tear and actually thinking about how beneficial it would be for me if he did pass. Like how heartless can I be right now?

   Sorry for the wait, Gia said. Dr. Walters is running behind today. It's ok, I forgot why I was even here. Everything ok? Yeah, my mind just all over the place right now. I'm sorry about your husband, Gia said. Sorry? I'm not saying it in that way. I'm sorry what happened to him. What happened to him? Didn't you talk to the police? Yeah, they didn't tell me much. I've been waiting for a doctor or somebody to come tell me something. Oh, I can check to see if I can get an update for you. Thank you! Meanwhile, ill continue to check with Dr. Walters and let him know you here. It's ok, im not worried about my appointment right now. Ok, ill check back with you shortly. While sitting here waiting, I called my mom to check on Cori.

   Hey, how is your appointment? I haven't been seen yet, but im not worried about that right now. What's wrong? I was sitting in the waiting area when Norris was brought in. What you mean brought in? He was rushed in cause of gun shot wound. What! Is he ok? I'm not sure, I haven't gotten an update yet. Have they told you anything? Just that he was found shot, I said. Who found him? They didn't say. I'm hoping he's ok, my mom said. I didn't respond when she said that. I don't like that silence Gabby. What? You got quiet, my mom said. What's going through your mind? If he's not ok, I wouldn't be mad. Gabby! I'm being honest ma. The more I sit here and wait, the more I think about the outcomes of if he not ok. What you mean the outcomes? If something happens to him, that's my way out of this marriage. It's probably my only way out of it alive. He already said and showed he not signing the papers that easily. If he's really hurt, this is my chance and I have to take it. Gabby I can't believe what im hearing, my mom said. What? You really sitting here thinking of the pros if he's not ok. I don't know what's gotten into you lately, but this is not how I raised you. What else I supposed to do ma? The right thing and be there for your husband. Regardless of what's going on between y'all, that's still your husband. He might have not did right by his vows, and neither have you. Y'all still married at the end of the day. I know, im just thinking of the what ifs. Well, don't think of the what ifs and pray. You right, enough about this. How is Cori? She's fine, I just laid her down. She hasn't been fussing or nothing? I told you she is fine. Ok, hopefully I won't be here too much longer. She's fine, take your time. Call me when you get an update on Norris. I will, I said. 

   I been sitting here for like 2 hours now and still haven't gotten update on Norris. A part of me wants an update. Then the other part wants a bad update. I know that's bad and im wrong for thinking that. Mrs. Lee? Yes, I said while standing up. Your husband is out of surgery, he has lost a lot of blood. Ok, but he's ok? Yeah, in a lot of pain. Damn, I thought. I'll prescribe him something for the pain. Is it any more you can tell me that happened? Police said he was found shot at his office. That's it? Yeah, you can check with the police to see the official statement. When can I see him? I'll have a nurse come get you when he's ready. Ok, thank you doctor. You're welcome! In my head, I was bummed as hell he ok. I was hoping he was at least fighting for his life or something. If I can catch him in a desperate state, that'll make him sign the papers. I probably can keep his medicine from him. If he don't do what I ask, I won't give it to him. This is the only chance I have, and I have to take it. If I don't catch him when his not weak, ill never get this chance again.

   I looked at my phone and saw Dr. Walters calling. Hello! Hi, Gabby! Hi, Dr. Walters. How are you? I should be asking you that, Dr. Walters said. I'm ok for the most part. That's good, how is the baby? She's great, thanks for asking. I was calling you to schedule up a follow appointment. I thought I already had one. No, I haven't had anybody schedule an appointment yet. You didn't? No, that's why I called you. Yesterday, I got a call from the nurse I had when I was in labor. She said you wanted me to come in for a follow up. Your office was closed due to some renovations and my appointment was at the hospital instead. Why would a nurse that doesn't work for me call you for a follow up? I thought the same thing, I said. My office isn't closed either, Dr. Walters said. That's strange, I said. Yeah, it is. When you want to set an appointment? Whatever works for you, I said. You can come in tomorrow, if that works for you. Yeah, that is fine. Ok, see you then. Ok, thank you for calling me. No problem, Dr. Walters said. I knew something wasn't right. Why would Gia call me here? I'll worry about that later. Mrs. Lee? Yes, I said. You can see your husband now. Thank you!

   I walked in the room and was speechless. Out of all the years of being with Norris, ive never seen him like this before. He look so helpless. I just stood there, starring at him. How he was lying there, he already looked dead. Who would do this to him? Especially at his office. I instantly thought about Connor. Was he there, did he get shot too? Did he do this? What am I thinking? Connor wouldn't do something like this. I know he wants me to his self, but he wouldn't do nothing this extreme to have me to his self. I got closer to the bed, not really sure what im feeling. So many mixed emotions running through me right now. I touched Norris arm and he looked at me. You here? Why wouldn't I be? I thought you hated me, Norris said. That doesn't mean I want something to happen to you. What happened anyway?

   I was shot while I was at the office. I know that much, who did it? Trevor, Norris said. Trevor? Veronica's Trevor? Yeah, he did this. Why? Why else would he do it? He not over the ass beaten I gave him, so he wanted to get back at me. He just started something he can't finish. Don't say that, I said. He could have killed you. But he didn't, that's the mistake he made. Now it's his turn to feel some heat. Norris stop before someone hears you. Norris began to grunt in pain. You ok? I need something for this pain. The doctor said he was going to prescribe something for the pain. He need to come on with it. I'll get the doctor, I said. Excuse me, he's complaining about the pain. I'll be right in, the doctor said. Can I speak to you first? Sure, the doctor said while stepping away from the nurses. As his wife, what rights do I have? I'm not sure if I understand what you mean.

   My husband has a small drug problem. Not real drugs, but more specifically pain pills. Oh, I see. As his wife, can I be in control of his pain pills? I will only give them to him when it's necessary and he's unable to deal with the pain. Yes, that's fine. Thank you! Let me get you something, the doctor said. Thank you! I'm getting out this marriage one way or another.