Confessions Too

Chapter 57

Today im being discharged from the hospital. Dr. Walters kept me here for an extra few days after having Cori. My blood pressure was still a concern and he wanted to keep me for a few days. Cori was cleared to go home, but Dr. Walters let her stay with me so I could breastfeed. I know this is going to sound crazy, but I don't want to be discharged today. Being here for the past few days has been my escape zone. I know being cleared to go home, which ever home that is. It's going to force me to deal with this situation. Of course, Connor is expecting us to come home to him. Seeing how Norris signed the birth certificate, he's expecting us to go back home with him. Not really sure how to deal with this situation without it going left. Either way I decide to go with this, it's going to end ugly.

Knock, knock! Oh my god! She is adorable, Veronica said while entering my room. Hey, what you doing here? You know I had to come see y'all. She is sooooo adorable! Thank you! Where are the kids? At my moms, Veronica said. How are you? I'm ok, you? I can't complain, Veronica said. How are you really? I know how it is being a new mom and all. Especially when your pregnancy was full of hell. So, how are you really? I'm just taking it one day at a time. When y'all going home? Sometime today, I said. I know you ready to get out of here. Not as ready as I thought I would be. Really, why you say that? Being here has been an escape place for me. Going home will just be a reminder of everything I was trying to get away from. You mean everything between you and Norris? Yeah, the fact im still married to him. He hasn't signed the papers yet? Nope, he not signing them no time soon. Typical Norris, Veronica said. Signing the papers will be him losing control and we both know how he feels about losing control. That's why im not excited about going home. The fact my blood pressure is always up, that's why my doctor has been keeping me here. I know I can't stay here too much longer. I have to eventually face everything. I would say try to get him to sign it some kind of way, but this Norris we talking about. Trust me, I know. It's no way I can get him to sign these papers, I said. I just stopped thinking about it. I know he's not going to sign it just so that he can continue to have control over me and our marriage. You can't allow him to stress you out anymore, Veronica said. You have to think about Cori more than ever now. Yeah, that's all I can think about. Every time I look at her, I just pray God allow me to make the right decisions moving forward. That's all you can do, Veronica said. I have a question. What? I've seen her twice, maybe 3 times. Why she so bright?

I mean neither you nor Norris is this light. When I had Noel, she was bright the first few days. Her color came in probably when she was 2 weeks old. Hell, even Brooke and Norris baby isn't this bright. I might as well tell you too, I said. What? My mom showed me this photo album book. She thought it'll be a good gift. I saw a picture of her and some white man. After a few pictures of seeing them together, she finally told us who he was. So, apparently my dad is white. WHAT! Yeah, me and my sisters was in shock. So, y'all never met him? Nope, they split up after my little sister was born. That explains why Cori is so bright, I said. Now that you said it, it makes sense. It even makes sense about you too. What you mean? I always thought you were either mixed or just clueless. What? Seeing how you took so much from Norris, that's some dumb white girl shit. Now knowing that you half white, it makes sense. You took a lot from Norris as well. So, I guess that was some dumb black girl shit. Since you half black, I can let you slide with that. I should be getting out of here, Veronica said. Thank you for coming by. Tell the kids I said hey. Will do, try to take it easy when you get out of here. You know that's easier said than done.

Good morning, Nurse Gia said. Good morning! Today is the day. Yes, it is. You don't seem too excited, Gia said. I am, I just got comfortable here. Dr. Walters just want me to check your blood pressure before you leave. Will Norris be coming to get y'all? I'm not sure, I haven't talked to him yet. Should I call him for you? Or should I call Connor? Connor? Yeah, he is listed as your next to emergency. Really? Yeah, I remember Norris saying he was the godfather. I figured; I will put him as your next to emergency. Especially considering the fact he was here majority of your labor. I thought you would want him to be your next contact if we couldn't reach Norris. He did mention he was a lawyer and he's busy a lot of the times. I just thought having Connor as your backup was a good idea. It's ok, really. Your blood pressure is looking good, Dr. Walters will be happy to hear that. Do you need anything before being discharged? Extra blankets for Cori, breastfeeding pads, anything? No, but thank you. Ok, here is your discharge papers. Just sign them and y'all free to go. Thank you! I was hesitating to sign the papers, but I know I had to.