Confessions Too

Chapter 64

    I was holding Cori when my phone rang. Hello! Hi, can I speak to Gabriel please. This is she. Hi, this is Nurse Gia from the hospital. Oh, hey. How are you? I'm ok, how are you and Cori? We're good, thanks for asking. I know you probably wondering why im calling, Gia said. Yeah, just a little. Dr. Walters wanted me to reach out to you to schedule a follow-up appointment. Already? Yeah, he was going over your chart and had some concerns. What kind of concerns? I probably shouldn't discuss over the phone. That's why he wanted me to reach out to you. Oh, why he didn't reach out to me his self? He was busy and didn't have time to call you his self. Oh, I said. What day works for you? I guess tomorrow, I said. What time? The morning is fine with me. Ok, I will let him know. Thank you for calling! Oh, your appointment will be here at the hospital. Why? It's some renovation being done at his location. So, all of his upcoming appointments will be held here until further notice. Oh, ok. I have you down for tomorrow morning, Gia said. Ok, thank you. No, thank you.

It was a little weird that Gia called me to set up an appointment. Whenever Dr. Walters needed to see me, you would reach out to me his self. If he's busy, he'll have his secretary; which is his wife reach out to me. Why would a nurse reach out to me? I was really curious on why she called me. More curious on why my appointment at the hospital. Guess ill get all the answers I need in the morning. After hanging up with Gia, I laid down for a second. As soon as my head touched the pillow, my phone rang again. It's like people know when im trying to rest.

    Hello! Miss Gabby! Noah! It's so good to hear your voice, Noah said. How are you? I'm ok, you? Things could be better, Noah said. How is the baby? She's good, thanks for asking. How is Nori and Noel? Noel her normal self, not really sure what's going on with Nori. What you mean? He really haven't been the same lately. He's been very standoffish, not really his normal self. Do you know why? It could be a mixture of things that has took place, Noah said. From everything coming out about you and dad, this new sister, and my mom worrying about Trevor coming back. Why she worried about him? He always seems to come back, Noah said. Have she talked to him? Not that I know of. I know she'll say she haven't so that we won't worry. Well, you don't need to worry about that. It's kind of hard not to, you know? Yeah, I know it is. Where is Noah and Noel?

   Noel is taking a nap and Nori got his headphones on. Why? Guess to drown out his thoughts, I don't know. That's how I look at it, Noah said. Where is your mother? She said she was going to the store. How long she's been gone? Probably 10 minutes now. Let me talk to Nori. You can try, I stopped trying to talk to him. Ms. Gabby want to talk to you, Noah said while tapping Nori. Hello! Hey, how are you? I'm ok, I guess. How are you and the baby? We ok for the most part, I said. That's good to hear. Where is your mother? I don't know, Nori said. I had my headphones on, but I remember her saying she'll be back. She didn't say where she was going? If she did, I didn't hear it. Have you talked to your father lately? Nope, don't have a reason to talk to him. Have you? Yeah, I went to his office. Why? Hoping he would sign the divorce papers, I said. We both know he's not going to do that. If he hasn't signed in all this time, he's not going to sign. I just want him to sign so that I can go on with my life. Even if he do sign, he still will find a way to make your life a living hell. Look at what he's doing to Brooke. What you know about that? Brooke reached out to me, Nori said. What? When?

   I can't remember the exact day or nothing. I just know she called me and begged me to help her. I wasn't sure what I could possibly do to help her. I don't even deal with that man myself. So, I wasn't in no position to help her. That's why you've been distant, I asked? It's just too much going on, Nori said. Nothing is how it was months ago. Y'all not together, we don't get to see you, my mom is paranoid about Trevor coming back, and we from house to house. We'll be at our grandmother's; my mom will think Trevor will find us there. We end up going to stay with a cousin or one of my mom's friends. She'll get paranoid again, so we'll go to a hotel. Every other day we going somewhere different. I'm tied of being in different places every other day.

    We can't go to school now. She so paranoid, she thinks he'll come to our school or something. Her paranoia has gotten to a point where she won't let me do sports no more. She thinks he'll pop up at one of my practices or while im at the gym playing basketball. Like she wants all of us in the same room together at all times. Can't go to the bathroom without her standing outside the door. We can't be near any windows, like it's ridiculous Gabby. Wow, I didn't know all of that. That's because she don't like us on the phone. She thinks he has the phone bugged or something. She even trying to make our grandma sell her house and move because he knows where she lives. He's been over grandma house a few times. She has it in her mind he'll come there and harm grandma to get to her. Wow! Now you see why im distant and have my headphones on. No, our lives wasn't perfect before all of this. At least we had some type of structure and we got to live how we wanted to live. I miss going to school, doing my sports, and spending the weekend with you. I can't say spending the weekend with him, he was never there. Everything has become a little too much now, Nori said.

    Trust me, I understand. My life wasn't perfect either with your father. I spent a lot of nights home alone, especially during the week when y'all wasn't there. I stayed up many nights wondering where he was or if he was doing something he wasn't supposed to be doing. Even after the truth came out, I still found myself wondering. I miss being in the house, having y'all over, and even miss the luxury of being with your father. Yes, I was tired of being home alone and being unhappy. My life was at a point where I knew what was next for me. Now, I have no idea what's to come. I find myself wondering about that all the time. Every time I look at Cori I just wonder. I don't know what's next for me or her at this point. Guess our fate lies in your father's hands. It shouldn't be that way at all, Nori said. I can agree with you on that. Until he signs these papers, im stuck on this merry-go-round. I thought about just taking Cori and move away. That won't do me or her any good. I'll still have his last name and everything that comes with it. How you think I feel, Nori said. I have his last name; I know I have some of his traits. As much as I hate the thought of it, I know I do. I don't know what those traits are, but I know im like that man in some ways. We all are, Nori said.

    I can understand where you coming from. With me not knowing my father, I knew some of my traits came from him as well. Me not knowing him, I don't know what traits came from him. It was like that with me and my sisters. My mom used to always tell us; we were just like him. We hated the term, because we didn't know what she meant. Mainly because we don't know him. I feel like we don't know our father either, Nori said. As we got older the more the disconnect became. That's how I feel, I said. I'm not really sure where our disconnect started. It seems like it started once we said, "I do". Before we exchanged vows, everything seemed so perfect. I don't know where or at what point he stopped loving me. Have you ever asked him? Honestly, no. With everything that has came out, I never stopped to ask him. I see on a lot of shows they always say, getting answers to the questions you have is the starting process to healing. Maybe that will work for y'all, Nori said. Rather he give you the answers you need or not. It'll somewhat help you in the end. Maybe you're right, I said. Just try to talk to him. I will, thanks for the advice.