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45. Anachronism

He cupped my face, staring me with his gleaming eyes. His hands were wiping those constant tears tracing down my cheeks. He parted his lips to speak but he was stuttering.

"N-Now you are f-free from me, Y/N. Though I love you b-but I won't s-stop you from leaving me for Taehyung. I love you enough t-to let you go." He softly spoke the last sentence.

Hearing him more tears rolled down from my eyes as I tightened my grip around his body. I couldn't believe what he just said, me going to Taehyung but why? I love Jungkook. I was ready to give a second chance to this relationship then why was he was making this situation more complicated, I had to resolve his confusion that he was the only man in my eyes.

"YAH!!! ARE YOU CRAZY? I DON'T LOVE HIM BUT YOU, DAMMIT!!" I certainly yelled at him and leaned in to kiss him.

Passionately connecting the sensitive skin of our lips, I moved them deep and rough as I was partially sullen on his statement; pouring all the love I had for him. I was losing him and that mere thought made me scared too.

His eyes widens when my lips smashed onto his. Of course I initiated it, full of passion, longing and love while my eyes were closed with warm tears touching his cheeks.

He was definitely taken aback from my confession. Although I loved him but I had this uncertain feeling that it was too late for me to call ourselves,'us'.

I slowly part while our lips were still touching. Then I looked into his widened eyes, gradually disconnecting th contact. I stared at him, switching the stare between his both orbs.

"You are just a goddamn stupid husband who yearned for love and when I finally made my mind to return love, you left me alone. How could you be this idiot, Jungkook? How could you leave me alone after making me fall for you so deep in love?!" I whispered with sorrow while being impatient on why that damn ambulance has yet not arrived.

He slightly chuckled after listening to my words while I watched him giggle even when he was coughing blood.

With shaking hands he lifted my chin to make an intense eye contact.

"I'm sorry... I still r-regret leaving you but I never stopped loving you. You are the only w-woman I ever loved in my life. I can never l-let anything happen to you, neither w-when I am alive nor when I-"

"Shh.. Don't you dare speak that!"

"But it's true. I knew I didn't have t-time so I t-transferred all my assets to you. Live the life y-you always w-wanted, Y/N..."

"No, please! There's no future without you. Why can't you see? I want you with me, beside me, here in my arms but not like this. I want us to spend our lives together, growing older. When we would grow old cuddling, you would become my best comfort. Please!"

I sobbed louder but suddenly I left his grip loosening. Taking his hands in mine, I rubbed them. I continuously shook his body while he was trying hard to not shut his eyes.

"Jungkook, don't close your eyes! Please, the ambulance is on its way. Please!" I pleaded.

I kissed his hand when he tried to touch my cheeks. He curved his lips forming a slight smirk to say something that took me by a mixture of happiness, sorrow and surprise.

"Goodbye, babygirl!"

And he loosed his fighting spirit against the time wheel.

"No no no... Don't... Jungkook please don't leave me!"

My heart was beating insanely on watching him losing conscience. My skin turned pale, lips dried and I felt like I was drained out of all blood.

Then I heard hurried footsteps of people coming from behind. I turned and saw Jimin coming with hospital staff along with a stretcher.