'It wasn't all that you thought it was!' ~ Alex Turner Fanfiction

2016: Part 11

The first Christmas without Mum!

We just got to Jill's...we hadn't even walked through the door before she engulfed my dad I in a hug. Matt, Bre, Penny and Alex joined in...guess who just stood there.....Taylor Fucking Bagley...seconds later a dog started barking and Alex walked away to pet said dog.

"Jasmine...Richard...This is Scooter..Taylor's Frenchie!" Alex looked up at us with a massive smile on his face.

"Can I?" I asked Taylor.

"Of course!" She smiled...and she was nice....she didn't sound like a bitch for once...ah wait...Penny.. I sat in front of Scooter and pet him.

"He's adorable!" I smiled at both Alex and Taylor.

"He is, isn't he!" Alex smiled at me.....shit.

"If you will excuse me...it was a long journey!" I hurried up the stairs and locked myself in the bathroom...he gave me that look...the same look he gave me that day in my flat, the same look he gave me seconds before he....before he kissed me. I leant on the sink and looked at myself in the mirror ...."He just looked at me! Nothing more....he just looked at me!" I whispered to myself before flushing the toilet so it sounded like I'd at least been in there. I opened the door to see Breana standing outside.

"I saw it too JazJaz!" She stated quickly.

"What?" I asked, confused.

"I saw his face too!" She stated again and I dragged her into Matt's room so Taylor couldn't walk in and hear.

"How do you know!" I was so confused....she wasn't there when it happened so how would she know.

"Jaz....I've known Alex for 6 years, he's never looked at anyone like that!" Bre blurted. "Jaz he's fucking in love with you...but he loves Taylor too..but through the years I noticed it!" She started again.

"What do you mean through the years...I have spoken to him since 2013!" I...I didn't know what to say to be honest.

"He never shut up about Jaz.....He constantly asked Matt how you were, he was just too chicken to say anything...and the amount of songs he wrote about you... ugh it was draining hearing him go on and on about them-!"

"Sorry what....how many!" He wrote songs about me....

"Oh my god...Jaz how didn't you notice it.....He used I Wanna Be Yours by John Cooper Clarke...you have most of his albums on a shelf...you did then....You're So Dark, H.P Lovecraft books scattered everywhere...the same with Edgar Allen Poe...he re-wrote a line in Knee Socks....'You walked around your house wearing my sky blue lacoste and your knee socks'....The entirety of Stop The World-" She stopped when she saw Matt in the doorway.

"I know what you're thinking Jaz......yes you and Arielle have the same colour eyes!" Matt spoke for the first time.

"I'm gunna go see my dad!" I stood up and rushed downstairs before Taylor stopped me at the bottom.

"We need to talk!" She scowled at me.....what does this bitch want now!

So Taylor dragged me outside away from everyone and started lecturing me about how Alex is hers and that I should keep away from him and her dog...and yes I tried to tell her that there was nothing between Alex and I but she refused to accept it She also told me to hand over any presents I'd gotten him so he didn't get too close to me but of course I refused to do that. She couldn't stop me from being friends with him. I've known him my entire life....I can't just throw him away like he's a can going into the fucking bin....not again.