once more to see you

Ex-Friends

The atmosphere chilled as the two ex-friends eyes met. Izuku was the first to speak. "Okay. Let's talk." Katsuki attempted to yell something back at the green haired boy, only to be promptly cut off. "Not here." Izuku stated, walking straight past the blonde, expecting him to follow. The boy sped up to match the green haired boy's pace. Silence joined the pair as they walked, only to be broken by a gruff voice. "So, U.A? You in class b?" Izuku let out a breathy laugh. "No. I decided to be realistic. I'm in support and management." Katsuki processed this for a moment leaving the two in silence. "How the fuck did you manage that?" He spoke. "Getting into two courses? Uh I scored the highest scores ever recorded on the entrance exam." Izuku responded, trying to not make the uncomfortable atmosphere any worse. Katsuki decided not to comment on how much the new information surprised him.

Izuku stopped, "We're here." Izuku had taken them to Public Municipal Beach. The trash was still littered everywhere, but the dent made by Izuku's scavenging was clear to anyone who had come before. Katsuki looked around, why did the nerd choose here. "You wanted to talk Katsuki, so talk." Izuku addressed. That was all it took for Katsuki to snap. "WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN TALK?! YOU DROPPED OFF THE FACE OF THE EARTH AFTER TRYING TO KILL YOURSELF WITHOUT GIVING ANY EXPLANATION! YOU MANAGED TO GET INTO TWO UA COURSES BY GETTING THE HIGHEST SCORES EVER RECORDED ON THE ENTRANCE EXAMS! YOU COMPLETELY AVOIDED ME! I HAVE A RIGHT TO KNOW WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING!" Katsuki ranted. Izuku stood still, watching the blonde yell at him. It was all he could manage to not flinch at the volume of the boy's voice.

Izuku sighed. "I understand you're confused, but I don't owe you shit. You were my first friend, but you never acted like it! You tormented me for years! You crushed my dreams! You don't deserve an explanation, you don't need to know anything about my life!" Izuku's voice cracked painfully as he raised it. "YOU TOLD ME TO KILL MYSELF! AND THEN YOU SAVED ME! IM THE ONE WHO DESERVES A FUCKING EXPLANATION! BUT I KNEW BETTER THAN TO ASK YOUR REPRESSED ASS TO EXPRESS YOUR THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS! SO I MOVED ON! I MADE NEW FRIENDS THAT ACTUALLY CARE ABOUT ME AND DONT BASH ME FOR THINGS I CANT CONTROL! SO DONT YOU DARE TRY TO WORM YOUR WAY BACK INTO MY LIFE! CAUSE THE WORST PART IS I WOULD LET YOU!" Izuku felt fire in his heart, followed by a familiar darkness trying to extinguish it. He knew he was stronger now, but that didn't stop the fear of how the blonde would react, it didn't stop the guilt he felt for saying those words to the blonde. Looking up he didn't see the same blonde boy he remembers. Katsuki looked petrified. Their eyes met. Izuku's gaze filled with tears and anger. That's when it happened, silently tears started flowing from the stoic boy's crimson eyes. Katsuki dropped to his knees. "no. no no no no no" The blonde repeated over and over. Izuku was frozen. He shook, he had never seen his ex-friend like this. The boy in front of Izuku looked vulnerable. Katsuki cried silently continuously repeating the same word. No. Katsuki dug his nails into his hand, clenching his fists tightly, drawing blood. This had to be a nightmare. Blood spilled from the crescent shaped marks, dripping onto the sand. Izuku knelt down quickly, gripping the blonde's wrists and forcing him to look at him.

Katsuki unclenched his fists, looking at the green haired boy in front of him, he wasn't looking down at him in pity. The boy's green eyes were filled with worry and tears. Katsuki cried. Izuku panicked, grabbing Katsuki's now unclenched fist and prying it open, exposing the blood from deep nail marks. Without thinking Izuku pulled off his blazer, using it to press on the wounds, stopping the blood flow.

"Why?" Katsuki's gruff hurt voice croaked out. "Why the hell did you listen to me!" He cried. "I thought you weren't affected by my words! Always flashing that innocent smile no matter how scared you were! I WAS FUCKING JEALOUS! YOU DIDNT EVEN HAVE A QUIRK! THE WORLD WAS CRUEL TO YOU BUT YOU WERE STILL SO CARING, UNLIKE ME! I THOUGHT YOU LOOKED DOWN ON ME FOR HAVING SUCH A SHITTY PERSONALITY, EVEN THOUGH I WAS BLESSED WITH SUCH A GOOD QUIRK, I COUKD NEVER BE HEROIC! BUT YOU DIDNT! YOU CARED ENOUGH ABOUT MY OPINION THAT YOU LET MY FUCKING STUPID HATEFUL WORDS GET TO YOUR HEAD. IM THE ONE WHO SHOULD KILL THEMSELVES! NOT YOU! BUT IM TOO MUCH OF A STUBBORN BITCH TO EVEN STOP TRYING TO BE A HERO! IF I HADNT COME TO THE ROOF THAT DAY YOUR DEATH WOULDVE BEEN ON MY HANDS!" Katsuki was shaking. His breathing was sporadic. Izuku was shaking too, he hadn't thought that Katsuki cared so
much. He needed to snap the blonde out of whatever possible thoughts he could be having right now.

Izuku slapped him. Katsuki looked up at him, Izuku was crying, the pressure on Katsuki's hands made them go numb. "DONT YOU DARE SAY THAT! I DONT BLAME YOU! SURE IM ANGRY AT YOU BECAUSE OF EVERYTHING YOU PUT ME THROUGH, BUT YOU ARENT THE ONLY THING THAT DROVE ME TO SUICIDE! I NEVER THOUGHT YOU COULDNT BE A HERO! I STILL DONT! YOU ARENT A BAD PERSON! WE WERE BOTH YOUNG AND DIDNT KNOW HOW TO REACH OUT FOR THE HELP WE NEEDED! YOU HAVE TOO MANY REPRESSED EMOTIONS, I JUST HAPPEN TO HAVE BEEN YOUR OUTLET! ITS NOT YOUR FAULT SOCIETY MADE ME FEEL USELESS, AND ITS NOT YOUR FAULT I DIDNT HAVE THE SUPPORT FROM MY PARENTS I NEEDED! MY ACTIONS ARENT YOUR FAULT! IF YOU HADNT SAVED ME I WOULD HAVE NEVER MET MY FRIENDS AND I WOULD BE DEAD, SO DONT SAY YOU ARENT HEROIC!" Izuku shouted, straining his voice. Katsuki shook his head in disappointment. "You really are too good for your own good." He cried. Izuku pulled the blonde into an embrace, similar to the fated day on the roof top, they sat on the sand and relished in each other's body heat. This time an silent agreement was met. They needed each other.