Written in the stars

Your new girl

Jennie

The next day, Irene kept questioning me, on our supposed "date."

No matter how many times I told her it wasn't a date.

Just then, a girl walked into the locker area.

She was so pretty and amazing.

Everyone stared at her.

...even you.

Anyways, she walks up to us and says she's new.

She introduces herself as Nayeon, and her nickname as nabongs.

We exchange numbers and I put her contact as:

'Nabongbongs🐰'

She just reminds me of a bunny.

I guess I have a new friend?

As I wait for you to walk me to class like you always do,

I wave and you just walk past me, going towards...

My new friend, Nayeon.

Irene at this time, had already taken off.

I saw Jungkook look at me with sad eyes, and go with another one of his friends, who I think his name was Taehyung?

Soon, the lockers were empty and it was just me.

It suddenly started raining outside.

Who am I to be sad?

It's not like he's replacing me, not after yesterday.

Right?

Well, now I'm not so sure,

Today went downhill from there.

It was lunch break and you didn't even spare me a glance before going outside.

We always spend lunch breaks together.

And if not, you're with your hyungs.

But your hyungs decided to eat in the classroom.

So where were you going?

I saw your friends give me sad eyes as I continued to eat alone.

They offered for me to eat with them, but I declined.

I just needed to take a break from all this stuff.

I decided to head to our place in the school garden that you showed me, to remind myself that I wouldn't be replaced, but once I got there, you were already there.

With Nayeon.

I unconsciously started tearing up as I ran to the girls bathroom.

I had no right to feel like this.

I'm just his friend.

He can have other friends.

I need to know my place.

As a friend.

I decided to go to the only place I could go, the music room.

I grabbed the guitar and just started to sing 'Stay by Blackpink' , one of my favorite songs and girl groups.

And while I was singing, I just hoped, I hoped that you would walk into the room like before,

I just hoped you were looking for me.

I feel like I'm overreacting.

I don't know what to do without you.

I ended the song, and it was pindrop silence.

Why would I even expect you to come here, you were busy showing your new friend around the school.

Why am I so affected?

School ended after a while and as I was packing, I waited for you, to say goodbye, or anything.

You just packed and left.

Who knew I could go this crazy without talking to you for just a day.

I walked home to be greeted by crashing and fighting.

It was my parents.

They didn't usually fight but recently they started getting into a lot of fights.

It upsetted me a lot.

So I ran up to my room and wore headphones, to drown out the shouting.

But it didn't work, the shouting got louder and louder.

I started shaking.

I was hyperventilating. I felt like it was hard to breathe.

My vision got a little blurry.

I started feeling intense fear.

I was in shock. I didn't know what to do.

My heartbeat got more intense and I called the person I could think of.

You.

But you didn't answer, and I was getting worse by the minute.

So I called Irene.

Soon enough she came through my window and brought water.

She quickly googled what to do.

She puts a blanket over my head, hugs me and tells me to breathe in and out.

"Focus on your breathing"

Soon enough I was calm and she gave me water.

I went out of the blanket and she was crying.

"Jennie Ruby Jane Kim, do not ever scare me like that!" She says shakily pulling me into an embrace.

That day, she told me to tell her everything going on.

So I did.

I told her about you and about my parents.

"THAT MICHIN NOM, I WILL MAKE HIM SUFFER, YOU COULD HAVE HAD SOMETHING SERIOUS IF I WASN'T HERE. SOMETHING COULD HAVE HAPPENED TO YOU, ALL OVER A NEW 'FRIEND" SHIBAL! TO HELL WITH HIS IDIOTIC ARSE!" She ranted.

I stayed quiet.

Who am I to judge, he could have had something important during my anxiety attack.

Right?