Madison Beer Oneshots (GirlxGirl)

I Hate My Life

Mini A/N: For the purposes of these onshots, you're apart of the FBI unless stated otherwise

Oneshot Details: Fluff. A long day at work, longer night ahead hating life is easy but with the comfort of Madison, life becomes worth it.

Word Count: 1667

*DON'T play song yet

Y/n's POV:

"Hey Y/n I want these reports done by tomorrow night on my desk." I lift up my head from my desk seeing a pile of folders and I internally screamed but my face stayed the same, "Yes sir." I sigh and my boss, Mr. Allister clapped, "That's what I want to hear, goodnight agent." He patted my back and I watched him leave the office just like everyone else, I wasn't the last one but I guarantee I will be again. I hate my life. Being in the FBI is awesome and all but it's not exactly like Criminal Minds or Law & Order and that isn't a surprise they only show the interesting things that happen. Being on the field is great until you have reports to make and finish. I pulled out my phone and I tapped my wife's contact.

My Love🧸🤍

Me

Mads, I'm not gonna be home till late
Boss man gave me another stack, so go eat without me.

My Love🧸🤍

Are you sure? I can wait it's not a problem

Me

I'm sure, I don't want you to be up late because of me

My Love🧸🤍

Okay be safe, I love you

Me

I love you too

"See you tomorrow L/n!" I look up putting my phone away seeing one of my co-workers, "Yeah see you tomorrow." I waved then loosening my tie, I stared at the papers for a good few minutes coming up with reasons why I should quit everything. I would have time. My stress levels wouldn't be so high. Relaxation would be in my vocabulary. I would be more present in my wife's life instead of leaving her alone all the time. She understands and she's convinced me before not to give up on my career but at this point quitting sounds like my best option if I want to live past 50. I rubbed my face opening up the first unfinished report. A 5 year old girl went missing after playing in the park with babysitter, found after two weeks. Next 34 year old woman charged with murder and kidnapping after finding her husbands body in their home garage. Next teen ran away from abusive household unfound, suspects abusive father, still not found. The unsolved cases brake my heart more than the solved cases purely because who knows what these people are doing now, the teen could be dead now and the father could be living a criminal free life, I always hated when my coworkers couldn't finish a case let alone their report. I didn't look up till half of the reports were done, each yawn telling me to get sleep but I denied closing my eyes. Mentally I was tired yet my body seemed to keep moving. I hate my life. My phone lit up with notifications for whatever reason why and the time was 11 pm. I give up. I leaned up flipping the cover closed and I picked up all of the reports including the ones that weren't done and I dumped them on my boss' desk, if he's gonna be mad then he should get mad at the people that couldn't write simple information down.

I left the building seeing just how dark it is outside car horns were heard along with faint conversations from people walking past. I hate my life. I found my car as if it was hard, it's the only one from my building's parking lot and I hopped in chucking my briefcase and jacket onto the passenger seat. I pulled out of my parking spot I drive back home, I'm too tired to get food or eat, so sleeping on an empty stomach will have to do. The hour drive was over after realizing that I zoned out during the drive, I saw the garage door in front of me and I blinked look out my windows, how the hell did I not die? I hope I didn't hurt anyone else. I hit my head on the steering wheel a few times, "AHHHHHHHHH!" I yelled before hoping out. I got inside hearing Madison's voice, she isn't sleeping. I went up the steps seeing Bowie pick his head up, "Hey boy." I waved up seeing his tail wag as I took a step over him into our room. "You're still up?" I asked seeing my wife with her hair down, glasses on with a phone propped up. No matter what she wears she looks gorgeous every time. "I was waiting for you so I'm here on live, I'm gonna have to go guys I'll talk soon!" I watched as she waved blowing a kiss to the camera as I got undressed into more comfortable clothing. I joined Madison in the bed and I planted myself face first into my pillow, "How was work?" She asked, "Boring, I'm so fucking close to quitting." I mumbled and I feel her hand rub my back, "You're not quitting and you know that, it's just been a rough day and night." I turned my head to the side seeing her get into the same position as me keeping her face an inch away from mine, "You know it's going to be worth it right?" She rubbed my cheek and I nodded slowly she leaned in kissing me and I smiled into it closing my eyes.

I looked at my phone, 3 am. What the hell? I turned around once more yet no position was comfortable. I just wanted to sleep, sleep is what I need because it's good for the soul dammit. I took my pillow pressing it against my face, I wanted to scream but I didn't want to wake up Madison, having a cranky Madison is not fun. I sat up letting the pillow fall onto my lap, I hate my life, even Bowie is snoring away. He's probably dreaming, can dogs dream? "Bub why aren't you sleeping?" I felt a warm hand touch mine and I shot my head towards the sleepy voice, "I couldn't sleep, I'm sorry for waking you my love." I took her hand placing a kiss on her knuckles. She sat up and rested her head on my shoulder, "Do you want me to sing to you, maybe that'll help calm your body?" She offers, I nodded and she sat up some more leaning herself against the head board and I lay my head on her lap letting my arms wrap around body. "What do you want me to sing?" She asks in a soft tone, "Tyler Durden." I picked one of her songs, the song that made me fall in love with her the first time we met.

*Play song (Read along)

She started to hum as she ran her fingers through my hair and in an instant I felt safer, as much as I hate my life because of all the stress and unnecessary shit that happens, I can't bring myself to change any of it. I worked so hard for everything yet it keeps kicking me in my ass and I don't know if it actually is going to get better as much as I wish that one it'll be worth it I don't know if it will, there's so much to do and so little time. "With your fingers in my mouth you're only speaking vowels and I like it. And with your hand around my throat, I don't want to see you go cause I like it." Her voice kept my thoughts at bay and when she sings my worries seem to vanish, she had this power over me and me being away for so long only builds up what I hate. There's a lot to hate in this world and I mean a lot, too many things to count and too many things to list I just want them all to disappear. I just want them all to leave me alone, that's it. "I'm done for, but I'm in love with Tyler Durden and that's why this shit ain't ever working for me. I'm in love with a fantasy." I smile hearing her voice and I know she is too, she reassures me when it comes to problems like this, she somehow makes me have faith that everything will one day be okay and that everything I do will be worth it. I just want everything I do to be worth it for her, she's the only thing that I'm sure of in my life and the only thing that I can count on and that's the scary part, I can't count on my job, my boss, the very world that I live in. It's only her. I don't hate what she does, I don't hate that she's in my life, even when our relationship shows it's flaws I don't hate her or what happened. I shouldn't be dependent on her for my happiness but it's not like anything else is doing the job, it's the small things and even the ring around my finger is enough because it's her, she gave it to me promising on our wedding day that her love is for me. There's so much in the future to look forward to and I know she's excited to watch it all play out because she dreams about it and talks about it. Those are the times where I don't hate my life. "That's why this shit ain't ever working for me, cause I'm in love with a fantasy. Cause I'm in love with Tyler Durden, that's why none of it, none of it is ever working." She finishes the song kissing my cheek. She's the only reason why I don't hate my life because she makes it worth it.