It all started with a fight.

Chapter 18

The next day I texted Jake to come over and told him I had something I wanted to talk to him about. He asked me if I was alright but I didn't text him back. I got up and got ready around ten and went down stairs to fix some break feast because this eating for two and throwing up everything I eat sometime in the day is not m cup of tea. I forgot to text Ryan and asked him if he could come over too since I wanted to have a full "family" conversation. This should be nice right? No, I have this feeling that somewhere in this conversation someone is going to get mad and leave. But I guess we dont know until we try right.

When I texted Ryan he told me he would be right over. Jake still hasn't got here yet but until then I'm going to sit here and eat my food. Just as was eating my french toast the door bell ringed so I got up to open the door. Jake and Ryan both stood there in front of me. Neither one of them talked they just looked at me. At the same time they both asked the same thing, "Why is he here?".

"Come on in I was just eating break feast and I have something I wanted to talk about and I think both of you guys should be here for this."

Jake: "Alex just cut to the chase what is it that you want to talk to me and him both?"

Ryan: "Yeah you didnt tell me HE was going to be here, what is it?"

I looked at my food and figured they didn't want to watch me eat or neither did they want to eat either so I just told them to come into the living room. "Come into the living room and sit down." They both followed me into the living room, me on the couch, Ryan in the chair, and Jake on the love seat.

"Ok so Jake I think you should know this, I called Ryan last night and told him that I was having a boy. We talked for a little bit and I told him that he could be in the child life as long as I didnt get hurt again." When I looked into Jakes eyes I could flash of anger, sadness but most of all anger.

"Why Alex I thought me and you was going to handle this own our own, you told me this was OUR child and know you want to bring back HIM into this. If you remember Alex he was the one that left you and told you that he didnt want nothing to do with you or this child. So why know do you want to give him another chance?"

I looked down at the floor, I didnt have anything to say. I felt bad that I was doing this to Jake but deep down I still love Ryan and I know that my son will need his father in his life one day. Im only doing whats best for him.

"Jake I'm only doing whats best for my child and if you like it or not Ryan is the real father he has all rights to this child just as much as I do. So you can either stay with me and deal with him being around or leave. But I must say this if you leave and walk out that door dont come back. I have had to many people leave me alone in this life and I dont want them to keep messing with my emotions. So whats your choice?" I looked over at Ryan he was staring at me and then he looked over at Jake.

"Jake I just want you to know that this is all Alex choices not mine she just called me last night and started talking to me about all this." That was the first time Ryan has spoke during this whole thing. Jake gets up looks at me and speaks, "I'm not going to be in a relationship where I'm not going to know if I'm going to lose the girl I'm with to some douche bag of a "man" as yall say Alex I'm sorry but I cant bye." And he walks out the door. I'm shocked to say the least I thought he would as least understand where I'm coming from with all this but I figure not. Ryan gets up and comes sits beside me and wraps his arm around me.

"Alex I'm here for I know I screwed up at first but now I want to prove myself to you and my son. Please forgive me Alex."

"I forgive you Ryan and please dont leave me alone in this I cant do this by myself." I look up at Ryan and smile and I could feel the tears building up and I just let them fall I'm tired of holding my feelings in. But after you get hurt so many times you get to where you cant trust anyone, you get scared to show people the real you. But for know on I'm going to face it, I'm pregnant as a teen.

I lift up and wrap my arms around his neck and we sit there for what felt like forever. When I finally pull away he looks at me and smiles. "You wanna go get some ice cream?"

This boy knew me to well I smiled at him nodding my head. "Yeah I would love some please. Just let me grab my shoes and cell phone." I run upstairs grab my cell phone put my shoes on and run down stairs to meet Ryan at the door waiting for me. "You ready to go have some fun today with your baby daddy?" He chuckles at this and I do as well. I hope he proves his self to me for the baby sake. "Yes I am I love ice cream and you know that." We both laugh and walk to his car.