Sexually Feeding

What i want

After my session on Saturday with dominate curry had m thinking of him and the memories kept replaying in my head. I asked him to be my dominator so he can boss me around and spank me and look at me directly in the eyes. I want him to treat me as if he owns me make me call him sir or daddy. BDSM to me is about sexual control but also it's a lifestyle. I want him to finger me on the elevator and kiss on me in a loving way, to be honest I want it like bitter sweet. Having sex with him is a different feeling to me and he's literally the best sex partner I've ever had. Everything had the right feels and I can't get over the way he looks at me. Everything he did was so natural and breath taking and that's why I feel like him being my dominator is a good match and you can tell he has white liver just like me! I think I feel this way because he's my crush and I've been wanting him for a long time and I'm ready to sign over my life to him and only make him happy. I want him to choke me and kiss me and spank me and whip and cum all over me and in every hole. I want it in the worst way I want it to be forced in. I want to be his sexual puppet and you may think it's crazy or insane but it isn't it's just a habit that I can't shake. I had one other dominator but he was not strict enough and how he act was like he was forcing it and I didn't like it at all. I want someone that knows what they're doing and that's very strict to the point I can't talk to anyone or do anything without his permission. When I see my dominator I want to feel fear and love in my chest to the point I have to catch my breath from nervousness. I want to cry and laugh and moan at the same time and I just want that feeling and hopefully I can get it but I think I will because it started great and still going good!