Sexually Feeding

The Old Me

Before all the hurtful things that was happening to me I was so down to earth that's why I'm calling this chapter the old me. I was hurt for a long time very angry and didn't have much sex. I was mostly trying to get money trying to make sure I could feed my son and making sure that I had everything I needed not what I wanted but what I needed and now, after all those things that happened to me, I became this outgoing, funny person, but deep down I am just a shy, funny person that didn't talk to many people had a couple friends and etc. now as I get older, I found myself being the same person that I used to be and have you ever heard someone can bring out the old you or someone can bring out the best of you or something like that, well for me I think certain situations had brought out the old me and it's scary sometimes because becoming that person again, is killing the new Kae and I love the new Kae she's outspoken funny and she knows more but the old Kae was so naïve very self-centered, cared about her self and her kids, but no one else and she was very shy didn't have many sex partners and didn't care too much about any sexual thing. I would talk about it a lot, but never really did it and then as I got older and more experienced and everything has happened to me so fast and things have changed for me, but now since the old Kae is coming back, I see myself staying in the house more and not going anywhere and not talking to many people. I don't have any friends really, and my friend group is really small. Sometimes I feel like I'm boxed in, but in this next part or chapter, I should say you'll find new people that made me happy made me feel alive and made me feel great again, and also became my new friends and my new lover. Are you ready for another part because I am to be continue but I hate separating new and old but come on it's a big difference and it's hard but you got to move pass it and this time I did. I'm happy I'm getting out this box and I'm the next part you'll see.