Sexually Feeding

Disappointing feelings

Well, my little chest is hurting but who wouldn't see this coming from a heart throb. Usually I always get what I want and this time I definitely didn't and all I wanted was sex and a new "friend" but The Stepper only wants to be friends for some reason and he think that I might grow feelings. I usually don't grow feelings unless I see the man growing them because I don't stop my true emotions I let them fly like the wind bitch. I understand his point but why give me some bomb ass juicy ass dick and then say
" HeY lEtS bE fRiEnDs" I was like "you couldn't say this before?" I wasn't mad but very disappointed at some point but I had to understand and go my separate way because I felt like I was begging him at some point.

I don't chase men and I don't let them chase me as I said before I'm a loner and I'll always be! I haven't been in a real relationship since 2015 and after that I was doing what I wanted to do, living my best complicated life. I wouldn't get in a relationship right now even if someone paid me to. I love the feeling of waking up not worrying about if a nigga cheating on me or catching no STD's or ABC's.

I just only want some bomb ass wet and drippy ass sex that's going to have my legs shaking and me crying and screaming and some more shit and The stepper finally gave me that and now I'm like damn I just got played like 2k. Men know what they want and who am I to be upset and mad about his decision. All I got to do is move on and find other dick like I usually do and that's how I do it each and every time and technically this was a one night stand which kinda throws me off. It throws me off because I've been wanting this for a good long time and it was good and big and tasty like a pickle and y'all know much I love me some pickles.

He twisted me up like no other bitch and ever since I left his place my pussy been throbbing but as soon he said that friend shit I instantly thought this nigga was playing some type of game or something and then my pussy dried up like the desert because I think he's just a cool person but now I think it's games being played and to be honest I don't play games and I'm a straight forward type of person. I have rules when it comes to this type of shit and I won't tell how I handle shit like this and it's not wild it's pretty normal but I rather not tell but I will tell this rule that apply's to 3 people that left me as a friend and left me for women and they knew it wasn't going to work out! Me and them was once fucking at one point then became strictly friends then they left me in the dust and I felt really hurt, fuck what The Stepper did because what they did was much worst and it hurt me and the funny part was when it didn't work out for them they came running back and now I don't want no parts at all!

That reminds me of when The Stepper said " I know you don't like to share" hmmm, what? I don't mind a guy doing what he wants and him letting me do what I want, just don't judge me about what I'm doing then get jealous and upset because I'm fucking with another nigga. I think that type of shit is weird but usually I don't fuck with other people when I'm fucking somebody but what usually throws me off be the insecurities that crosses a man mind but I have to understand where he's coming from wether I like it or respect it or not. I really wouldn't mind being his friend but I feel like it's impossible now because I wouldn't able to control my emotions and I know if we were to be alone and just be friends I would attack him and fuck his dick loose like a goose hahaha.

I know one thing friends don't fuck friends and I don't want to cross that line so I rather not be anything to him and that kinda also sucks ass but it is what it is but as of right now I'm fake upset at him but it will pass and I'll be normal soon because I mean it's not that serious to bitch and moan about, You know? But I'm going to miss how this mans body smelled and how he fucking looked because got mother fucking damn I was like a school girl screaming over him now I'm sad as fuck HaHaHa!

I guess this is the end of The Stepper sadly because I wanted him to hit this pum pum from the back. I just wished we could of been friends before even fucking that's the only part I regret because fucking is not always important sometimes friendship is and he could of been a great friend to me as being I don't have no damn friends. I just wish I would of chose a better option.