Sexually Feeding

Turkish Delight

So after a hurtful and disappointing ending with dominate curry I laid low and just really didn't want to date or have sex with anyone and I just wanted to be alone but I met this guy named Turkish delight over 2 years ago and we would FaceTime and I always had an amazing feeling about him but I didn't want to mess things up but then I met someone else and had a baby on him and till this day I regret it.

So me and Turkish delight never fell off it was like our bond was so unbreakable and even if we were mad at each other for any reason we would still talk to each other but we didn't meet till reggae fest night on his birthdays in June but even then he had to go and we couldn't spend time. Then last week we finally met up and the sex was better then what I imagined plus I never sexed a Turkish guy and it's not many here in dc anyway but I love kissing him and fucking him but now that me and him had sex it's like I don't want to fuck nobody else and I don't want him to either but idc if he have sex with someone, I just don't want to know what the fuck he's doing you know? Turkish delight always made me feel welcomed but I always felt like he only wanted sex from me and that kinda hurts because I actually like him. I wonder how things can turn out between me and him, like in the future but I don't want to stay around for a while and we not dating or nothing that's going to piss me off and then ima feel used.

Even though I think those things I know he wouldn't do certain shit to me but it still makes me wonder but the second time me and him had sex I told him I loved him and I don't tell nobody I love them! Me telling somebody I love them isn't my thing and I'm upset at myself because I don't love him but I have mad love for him and I like him but loving him idk where that came from even though I'm comfortable with saying it to him but I'm not at the same time because I just simply don't mean it. Then I'm starting to feel like I really like him but he says he doesn't want a relationship and I don't either but I'm the future I do and I don't want to prolong it if he isn't planning on being with me. I'm so confused and dickmatized I just don't know what to do but this is my battle and I need to face it and tell him and talk to him, maybe? He's easy to talk to because he has a soft way when he's talking to me but it scares me lol in a good way. Even though I like Turkish delight maybe I need to start thinking about moving on or figuring out a plan or something but who know we probably, maybe, kind of can work out.
To Be Continued.................