Sexually Feeding

Complicated Curry

Everything was running smoothly with curry, He was smooth and sexy and dominate and everything but I started to notice slowly he's a entire ass cheek. He doesn't listen to nothing I'm saying. If I feel any type of way he doesn't care really but no matter what he does Im right back in his face because his dick is so fucking good and he so fucking sexy! All I want from him is to be his friend that he can fuck and love on and dominate. I want him to freak me out and control me but I don't think he's ready for a BDSM relationship. I understand people want to be free because I want the same thing but I want affection and casual sex! I want so much from him but I can tell he's going through a lot and that what makes me want to step back and not be to rough on him but being an ass towards someone that was nothing but nice and kind and very loving gets the short end of the stick. I literally always get the short end of the stick and I fucking hate that because I actually like him besides his dick. He wants me to treat him like a boy toy and I can't find myself to do that to him because I've had a crush on this man for 2 years and wanted to get to know him ever since and I just want to treat him with respect and kindness and love just like any of my other friends but I want sex from him every now and again. I really want his sex everyday to be honest. His dick so fat and smooth and it's just addictive and him being my dominator is good but I want it more rough and strict and right now his head isn't here. He said in the beginning he want to get to know me and I was excited because I always want to get to know him but now he's saying he doesn't and that shit is a bummer to be honest. I'm hurt and all I can do is just move on, I literally feel like I'm on his time and I don't like that. I don't like how I'm getting treated just because I like him and I just think he may think I'm press over him or want to be in a relationship and I definitely do not want that! I got out of a very bad relationship and situation and that ripped me apart and threw me off the worst way, I grew from that and I'm ready to have a BDSM relationship where a man has full control over me but isn't my boyfriend. I want to feel love and care and joy back in my life but right now all I'm getting is arguing and complications and shit. I just want sex and affection and that's it, is that so much to ask or and I fucking tripping. Hopefully things get better........