Sexually Feeding

The Key To My?

Have you ever met someone that has you wrapped around their fingers and whenever they want that pussy you give it to him? In late 2018 I met a guy briefly at club karma and he was dark skin with short dreads at the time and a nice body, At first I didn't acknowledge him but then again I did. I gave him my snap and we talked for a bit but stopped because at the time I wasn't interested in dating or anything. I just wanted a little flirting and sex here and there and that's it. I haven't went out much and I fell off the clubbing scene for a while and then decided to go back this year for my bday week/weekend. I seen him again after like two years later and I gazed at him but I wasn't trying to make it obvious but that look sparked a feeling in me!

I seen him twice after that night but the second night after I seen him at vybz fest and he was feeling up on me and I liked it a lot. After the party I went to my good friend Sarah house and we set there and talked but I really wanted to see Dwayne, yes that's his name. I texted him and he actually came to get me and we wind up having sex in his mini ass car. My back was hurting for a week and my legs was so fucked up but the sex definitely made up for it. He was packing like a bunch of Mexicans in a minivan and the dick had the right feels! That night was the first time of many nights and we kept meeting up for sex but when he went on vacation I started to gain some type of feelings for him so I told him it's best for us to be friends and he didn't want that and I didn't either, I wanted a relationship with him but at the same time I didn't I liked the way we were and his communication was getting better and then after our conversation, we were fucking sooooo much and then I missed my period and found out I was pregnant. He was so supportive and that made me like him even more and I started gaining a form of love for him but just didn't want to show it because I felt like it was a sign of weakness.

We wanted to get an abortion because I didn't want to spoil our time together since we decided to date. He was so lovely to me and seen me often and showed me he cared and the sex was so bomb every time we had sex! When I got the abortion he abandoned me so bad and I cried for two week and I was so heartbroken that he would hurt me that way and then I got tired I wanted him to just leave me alone but he didn't want that. He just wanted to lead me on and every time I wanted to be done he would want to talk then fuck me and then the cycle would repeat! I was tired of the asshole treatment that he was giving me because I didn't deserve it and I didn't understand why he was doing this to me. He was lying to me where he was at and lying to me that he is busy and etc and then I started to catch on.

I think that he is messing with someone else and that he doesn't have actual feelings for me, he just want a fuck stick and I'm done with anybody that want to use me or women for sex. It's annoying and degrading and I don't deserve that type of treatment. I started gaining so much feelings for him to the point if he was to keeping treating me in that heavenly way that he was I would of wind up asking him to be in a relationship and I would of grew love for him but he ruined that for me! I want to be cared for and I want to be loved and I think i want a relationship but I should of said that instead of saying I just wanted to bond and get to know him, I can admit when I'm wrong and take accountability even though it's hard. Life goes on and you live and you learn. That's why I'm writing this book with no shame just to teach women what not to do and how to do it!

To Be Continued.......