How Love Fixed Me(Sequel to how love found me)(Niall Horan fan-fic)

Chapter 41: Dont leave me

> Chapter 41: Don't Leave Me

> Carson's POV:

> I jolt awake to find myself still alone in my bed. Niall didn't sleep with me last night. I had spent a good hour in the shower and maybe another trying to get myself to come out. When I finally did, Niall was in the guest room sleeping. I took that as he didn't want to be near me. So I changed and slipped into bed. It was long before I fell asleep though. I cried for what felt like hours. The last time I remember checking the time was 4. When I finally did get asleep it wasn't peaceful, I had about twenty dreams where Niall was gone. Wherever I looked he was gone, I'd call his name and hear him answer but I could never find him. It was the worlds worst tease.

> While I was awake I wanted to go into the other room and cuddle against Niall, but I don't even know if that would help. So many things in my life are so messed up. I had been dealing with everything better because Niall and I had been talking more and more about these things but it just felt like no matter what those feelings come rushing back at my weakest point. Just to remind me that I'm not as strong as I'd like to think.

> I breathe deeply before I start bawling. My eyes are swollen and hurt terribly. Almost as bad as when I was hungover in Hawaii. I look at the time and see its 9:25. I jump up and run for the guest bedroom where all M's toys are. Niall is no longer in the bed. I run back to my room and see all his things are gone. His flights at 10:30. He's probably already left, takes over an hour for security. I run downstairs to find no one. I run outside and find Niall putting his things in my mothers car. Its raining and freezing but I don't care. I'm not letting him go like this. He can't leave me over this!

> "So are you just leaving without saying good-bye?" I ask him while becoming soaked by the rain.

> "No, I was coming to wake you up as soon as I put these in the car." He says starring at me getting soaked too and I believe him. His face is soft and calm."I'm sorry." He says those two words and I break.

> "Please don't leave me." I throw myself around him. He hugs me tight. I can't let him go, I need him more than I thought. The thought of him leaving me in the moment hurts so much I can't bare it. What if he leaves and never comes back? I can't loose him again. He's like a medicine I'm addicted to and when he's around my problems are gone. "I love you. I'm so sorry Niall. Please don-" He stops me by pressing his lips to mine in an urgent kiss. He lifts my legs so they're out of the cold snow and around his waist. When we pull apart from the kiss he carries me inside and sets me down on the chair in the laundry room.

> "I'll be right back." He says to me before wrapping his jacket around me then moving leaving me alone. I grab his arm.

> "D-don't l-leave m-m-me." I plead with tears in my eyes. His face falls as he looks at me. "I'm going to get you a towel. You'll get sick in those clothes." He says. I shake my head sobbing now. I feel like if he leaves he'll never come back. I feel like I'm going to shatter into a million pieces and won't be able to be put back together. I feel like I'm drowning and he's the only thing keeping me above the water.

> "Are there towels in here or dry clothes?" He asks me rubbing my back. I point to a cabinet behind him that we keep extra towels in. He opens it and hands me a towel.

> "Sh." He says trying to calm me. "You need to get out of those clothes. Wrap yourself in the towel, I'm going to step outside so you can change. Can you do that?" He asks me like I'm a little kid. I'm shaking now from being so cold. I shake my head.

> "D-don't l-leave me." I say again stuttering because I'm shaking so hard. I want him to stay in here while I change. If he leaves he could disappear.